(This takes place after Light loses his memory)
"(Name), hand me that." L asked, pointing to the cart of sweets beside you. "Would you like anything? You haven't eaten today." He asked. You smiled and shook your head. This was his third piece of cake today- and it wasn't even lunch yet! You two were still, or course, working on the Kira case. The paperwork was endless.
During your lunch brake, Misa motioned for you to followed her. "(Name), I have an idea." She whispered.
"Since Ryuzaki and Light have been working so hard lately, I thought we could surprise them. " she held up a small pink bag.
"Um...okay." You said, confused. Miss opened the bag, revealing what was inside. You blushed. There were two very skimpy dresses, if you could even call them that!
You shook your head. "No way!"
"Cmon, (name)! It's the least you could do for Ryuzaki!"
"Well....."
~time skip~
"Okay! Good luck, (name)! Misa squealed, Handing you your "outfit".
You headed to you and L's shared bathroom to get changed. The more you thought about it, the more you hated the idea. You sat down on the cold tile floor, the piece of cloth scrunched up In one hand. I can't do this. You thought as you started to become a little nauseous. You were ashamed of yourself. If Misa could do this then why couldn't you? That's right, because she was comfortable with herself.
"(Name)?" You heard Ryuzaki call from outside the bathroom door.
Your hands clenched together. Idiot. I'm such an idiot!
"What's wrong tenshi?" (Japanese for angel)
You sniffed, "I'm sorry." You said.
L sat beside you. "For what?" He asked.
"I just wanted to be a good girlfriend." You held out the item of clothing in your hand. "She had this idea and....I can't."
Lawliet slowly started to rub your shoulder. "Why not?"
"B-because! Misas so pretty and, I mean, to be honest you deserve better than me. I'm not very, I, i hate myself." You started sobbing. "Ihatemeihatemeihatemeifuckinghatemyself." You muttered over and over.
"Oh, (name)." L whispered, slowly pulling you in for a hug.
"Don't even think about yourself that way. You know who I'm lucky to have? You. You're amazingly talented and clever and beautiful. I mean that, love. You don't have to try to do anything to impress me, you know that? You impress me everyday."
Your crying got quieter as you took in the words he said to you.
"Lawliet." You whispered. "I love you."
