I can't do this anymore. I can't live like this..
I look to my left, and see all the other elders. Laughing, smiling, not knowing about my pain..
"What's wrong, Igness?"
"Are you alright, Igness?"
"You look pale, Igness."
All these questions, all I said was "I'm fine."
I'm not okay.
I'm not.
I look at my bingo board, I don't have a bingo.
I'm losing it.
I'm losing my mind..
How do I go on?
Will I be alive tomorrow?
I feel the salty tears leak out of my eyes.
I hear all the laughter from my fellow elders. They don't know I'm crying. They never know I'm crying.
What if I don't make it?
What if someone ruins my winning streak?
I don't care.
I don't care..
What is the use going on?
I hadn't even noticed, I've been blocking out the game. I hear someone shout,
"Bingo!"
And it hurts like hell..
