As I try,
Pain burns inside.
Dirt roads,
Cold beer
Pops through my mind.
As your past
Is what made you.
As I try,
Violence become down time.
For not reality
More as mind over reality!
Backing away from all this pain.
Ashamed dreams become less apart!
While I try,
For a better part.
Reality blows,
Trying to out run being grown!
Reality drags me to the earth,
Showing me that I ain't living right!
As I try,
Tonight could be the night,
Making better for this life.
My soul floats,
As my body stays to earth.
Mind set not right,
Making this heart hurt!
As I try,
I miss most of what I want,
Not the burn to my nose,
Not even going down the back of my throat,
For addiction catches most!
As I try,
I'm losing behind.
Making efforts to keep my mind away!
Keep my fight strong,
Strive more,
Quite less!
As I try!
I find myself falling behind.
Slowing climbing myself back!
Starting to see light.
Scary to think there is something else!
For my past drags me down,
You have turned me around!
Seeing more to this life.
Other then being a clown,
As I try,
I find myself ahead,
Every day moving higher up,
This food chain!
As I try!
I'll leave some behind,
But can't lose you by my side!
For my try,
Turns to achievements!
As I try...
