Love Me Again

The First Drift

I lit the last of the scented candles and waited on the bed for my husband to come home. Once I heard the key turn in the lock I sat up and tried to look as sexy and seductive as I could.

I usually didn't have to try so hard for my husbands attention, but lately he hasnt wanted to be around me much.

Staying late at work, sleeping in the guest room, leaving before I wake in the morning. It hurts, but I know he has a lot of stress on him.

He walks in the room while loosening his tie and ignores me to walk right past me into the closet.

I slump back down into the bed and sigh. Looks like another fight tonight.

"You should blow out the candles before the house is on fire and you're homeless," he says from the closet.

"This is you're home too, you'd also be homeless," I state while blowing out all the candles.

"Yes, but I have money to buy another one. Hundreds of them If I wanted. You're broke."

"God, what has gotten into you? Huh? Is it that secretary? You Fucking her? Is she the reason you don't want me anymore?" I asked. Geez, he's never been this way toward me before.

"Yes I'm fucking her, but you are the reason I don't want you anymore. You're disgusting. Fat and lazy. No wonder your family didn't want you and your last boyfriend beat you." He says. But seems to regret it right after.

I ignore his apologies and run into the closet wiping my tears as I go. It hurts. So much, I can feel my heart cracking and breaking, falling into my stomach where our baby lies. The one that he doesn't know about.

"Fuck, Jess. I'm so sorry baby." He says.

I ignore him once again and pack as much stuff as I can so that I can get away from him. I hate him so much right now. It hurts.

I grab my bags and slip on a sweatshirts, and sweatpants before I grab my phone and head for the door.

"Baby please. I'm sorry I went too far." he begs.

Why is he begging. Doesn't he want me gone?

"Yea, you went to far. But right now, I'm not far enough." I said.

It hurts. I opened the door and stopped just outside of it.

"I hope you enjoyed fucking her. She can never give you the family you want. Got an abortion from her last billionaire husband. Fucked her insides up and now she can't have kids. But there's always adoption. Because Fuck knows you wont be seeing my child."

I walked away from him. From the man that saved me. Loving him with a broken heart, but knowing he'll never love me again.