Infected (ON HOLD)

Jessica

A/N Dedicated toWhatAreYouTalkinBout for making amazing fanart above . Also for supporting me and encouraging me with this story. Love you Evelyn! I felt like the
previous chapter had a lot going on with jumping from different POV'S. So the rest of the book is going to be in Austin's POV. But if it is necessary then I will write in different POV'S. Or if you guys want me to. If you do let me know. Also I apologize for my horrendous grammar. I think this chapter will hit you right in the feels. BTW it gives information about his past and some hints along the way, so don't be alarmed when you see the word Moments.

K byeeeeeee.

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I don't know why I said it. But it was the first thought that came to my mind after what just happened. Before I walked out the door the words escaped my lips,"You're welcome."

His face scrunched up with what seemed to be confusion.

"Huh," he replied.

I said," You're welcome for the, um, birthday present." Avoiding eye contact I quickly walked out. I seriously just did that, I thought as I stared at the closed door. Oh my God I just let him give me a hickie. A damn hickey!

Crap! He gave me hickey! I subconsciously touch my neck at an attempt to hide the exposed reddening flesh. My eyes averted to the right side of the hall way then to the left. No one here but a few security guards, workers traveling to the clocking station, and some Infected going to their permanent rooms.

Okay, it's fine; it's not like they knew what went on in that room. There are no cameras or witnesses, so no accusations can be made. Not unless I tell someone. If I just keep my mouth shut no one will know. Plus, it's not like I'm...gay. Just because I moaned doesn't mean that I'm attracted to him. It's a hickey, I could of imagined anyone doing it.

I didn't even kiss him back! You're not gay Austin, I told myself. I'm not gay; I have a beautiful girlfriend and in no way attracted to the a man in a sexual way. I think...ugh what did I get myself into? I'm so confused with myself and with society. Suddenly I felt a tap on my shoulder and jumped.

"Austin?" I recognized that voice quickly.

"Hey Alex," I said as I kept my hand on the bruising part of my neck.

I must have been standing here for too long because he asked,"What are you doing over here, fuckface?" Again with that word.

"Oh I ,um, I-I was..."

I just got a hickey from a MAN.

Shut up! He doesn't know anything.

But what if he does-

Stop! He won't if you don't say anything.

But you're stupid and you might say something.

You might be stupid but if you know if you say anything you will have to be reported for a suspicion of being gay. Plus if you do convert than you won't be able to in work in an Institution.

You are acting as if you are actually gay. You aren't, so stop thinking like this.

"Hellooo. Earth to Austin." I snapped out of another one of my Moments as soon as I saw the hand wave in front of my face. I felt a slight blush creep on my face. Even though I told Alex about them I still feel embarrassed for the reason.

I felt him take a step towards me. When he spoke he lowered his voice,"Did you have another, you know..." He turned his head glancing around to see if anyone heard. "Moment?" he whispered the last word.