The world is dark to me

Dear readers if you can't take really sad things you should not read this book but please vote or follow me when ever I wake up and say good night all I see is darkness I see my blade and my suicide thoughts I my pain and that my blade is my friend it doesn't judge me it helps my pain yes I am a cutter and I will always be people say its bad but they don't cut so they don't understand hat it is like to me I do it because I have reasons for it helps get red of my pain as the pain gets worse i cut deeper I get more suicide thoughts because I have to much pain I have tried other things but it doesn't work at all so I cut I am a cutter and I have suicide thoughts everyday and I have had theses things from third grade in till now and no one really cares about it in till you start and then when you stop they stop caring about it in till you start doing it all and then they care they don't care about there a bunch of liars and hate that and I never be able to change!!!