Diary of a Depressed Teenager

April 18, 2015

I know I haven't written in a while so bare with me. But anyways...recently I haven't been the best. Before I was fine, happy, and not like...this. I started feeling depressed again. My boyfriend (I'm not giving out names so we'll just call him Zakk) and I have been fighting more than usual lately and it sucks. It feels like we're gonna break up soon. I absolutely HATE that feeling. Yeah I love him to death and all but he has been really pissy the past week or two. He knows what he's doing and it's only getting worse. I don't want to lose him but i don't want to fight like this anymore. He messaged his ex just to f**k with my emotions. It's bulls**t. I don't deserve this... He found out (Even though I wasn't hiding anything cuz I'm not like that) that my old friend (who's a dude) messaged me on Facebook and that pissed him off. I never once flirted with my old friend while I was/am with "Zakk". My friend was there when "Zakk" wasn't. I was depressed as'f and needed someone to talk to and he just happened to message me at the time...

*Later That Day*

Well..."Zakk" messaged me and got pissed AGAIN just because my phone died and wasn't answering his messages or calls. So he thought I was ignoring him -.- I am getting sick of this s**t. Drama every single time I leave my house. I hate how things have gotten this year. I'm really hoping things will get better. I doubt it though...