Hickeys and Jealousy (T.O.P) {BigBang}

Fin.

Being best friends with Seunghyun was honestly the best thing that had ever happened to you, he is a really understanding person after all. Someone who is protective of you like a big brother, always there to catch you when you are about to fall. Someone who isn't afraid to ask you what is wrong, if you are okay, even when you are hiding it well and others aren't even noticing that you are hurting on the inside. In the years of being his best friend you somehow fell for him, for his dorky jokes and how he is always there for you. Though, you knew that he only saw you as his best friend, someone to fall back on whenever it was needed, someone to talk to in the middle of the night whenever he couldn't sleep, someone that is just always there. You know that he loves you and cares about you, but not in a romantic way, so you decided to not act out on your feelings to keep your perfectly fine friendship with him. Being friends with him would always be better than having to go through that awkward phase because you couldn't keep your feelings straight.
Because you were best friends with Seunghyun you were bound to, at least, hang out with the other members of BigBang a lot. They were all great guys, you could always go to Taeyang whenever you needed someone to talk with and Seunghyun wasn't there, Daesung was always up for joking around, Seungri was always there to prank around with (like the two of you made a lot of revenge pranks against the older members as they kept 'bullying' Seungri) and as for Jiyong, he always seemed to invite you to the most amazing parties. Even when you aren't that big of a party animal, those parties of him were always worth going to. So when he asked you to come to yet another party you agreed, it has been a while since you did come anyways and what is the harm of going when you don't have work or school the next day?

Now that the evening of the party arrived you were making yourself ready. Not even to please anyone, you could have gone in casual jeans and a t-shirt if you had wanted. But it made you feel good to make yourself look even more pretty than that you already were. Putting on make-up and choosing a little black dress that seemed to be made for you, matching it with your favorite high heels because why the hell not? If you were going to do this, better go all out too. Jiyong came to pick you up as he always would, Seunghyun would kill him if something happened to you while you were 'under his watch', so he always made sure to pick you up and bring you back home. "Ready?" Jiyong asked as soon as you had opened the door, after grabbing your clutch you nodded, knowing that you wouldn't need anything more than your phone and some money just in case you would need it that night.
The party was already happening when you and Jiyong got there; loud music playing, people dancing everywhere and couples that were basically eating one another's faces. It was everything that you would expect from a party though there was just something relaxing about this place too. There always was with the parties Jiyong would invite you to, which was weird as normally parties are supposed to get you pumped up and hyper. Not relaxed and calm. "I'm going to meet up with some people, you know how to find me if you need anything or want to come home, right?" You nodded. "Than can you repeat it?" You rolled your eyes. "I can just text you, call you when you don't respond to my text within a time span of five minutes. Do we really have to go over this every time you take me to a party?" He smiled at how mockingly your voice sounded. "I can better be safe than be sorry. Have fun alright?" "I will" You assured him before he walked away to meet up with whoever he wanted to meet up with.

It was the next day that you woke up in your bed, blankets covering your body. You had the biggest headache ever and you were pretty sure that you didn't even have that much to drink last night. You remembered everything, getting your first (way too sweet) drink, getting on the dance floor, dancing like there was no tomorrow. You met this random guy that actually seemed nice for a change and the two came to talk, or more like taking a few shots and dancing even more. You shook your head as the images of you and that guy, that stranger, kissing filled your head. You never were one to kiss a total stranger, not even when you would be really drunk. It just somehow happened last night. You sighted as you got out of bed, naked feet touching the cold floor. You were still dressed in your little black dress, and you were pretty sure that your make-up was everywhere but the places where it was supposed to be. After taking a refreshing, and much needed, shower you decided to dress in sweatpants and a simple oversized shirt that slipped over your shoulder. It wasn't like you were going anywhere, so there was no need to cover up the hickey in your neck either. You couldn't believe that guy really gave you a hickey and you couldn't believe that you would let it happen in the first place, you were normally careful with things like that. Especially since you haven't had a boyfriend in years, it would be weird if you had hickeys on your neck out of nowhere.

You looked up from your laptop when you heard the bell rang, you just had made yourself comfortable with popcorn and a hot drink on the side so you could watch some episodes of your favorite show, so you hoped that there was a good reason to stop all that. When you opened the door a worried Seunghyun came in. "Yah! Why are you not picking up your phone or looking at your text? Do you know how worried I was?" He said while you closed the door. "I'm sorry Seunghyun. I haven't checked my phone since last night." "Speaking about last night, where were you?" He eyed you, scanning over your body as his eyes stopped at your neck. "And what are those?" He pointed at your neck while you quickly covered your neck with your hand, not that it was of any use as he had already seen the hickeys. "Uhm... Jiyong took me to a party and I kind of ended up kissing this guy?" The look in Seunghyun's eyes changed, it was a look you have never seen from him before. It was almost as if you could spot jealousy in them, along with anger. "How drunk did you even get? You never do something like that!" "I didn't have that much to drink! I wasn't even that drunk, just tipsy really. I can remember everything clearly, so don't worry about it." "I'm not worrying about that, I'm worrying about the fact that you are kissing strangers, and god knows what more you do with them, while being drunk." while being drunk." You pulled a confused face as Seunghyun was never someone to get angry at you for anything, normally he wouldn't be mad at you for getting drunk either. "Yah! What's the problem here if I may ask? Nothing more happened." "Are you sure of that?" "Excuse me, I know how much I can drink, thank you very much." You crossed your arms before your chest, not really seeing his problem here. It's not like he had never done something like that before, so why would he be judging you for it. "Don't give me that pouty face (Y/N). I'm just checking as I don't want you to do anything you might regret." "And that's why you have that look of anger in your eyes?" "Believe me, I'm not angry at you." "Than why did you get angry as soon as you saw the hickeys?" me, I'm not angry at you." "Than why did you get angry as soon as you saw the hickeys?" He bit his lip, avoiding your eyes that were staring at him.

"Fine then don't tell me." You sighted when he still hadn't answered after a good five minutes. You walked back into the kitchen. "Do you want some coffee?" You asked as you knew that he had followed you. He always did. Though, what he normally didn't do is snake his long arms around your waist from behind. Placing his head on your shoulder and whispering in your ear was something new too. "Do you really want to know why I got mad?" His low voice sent shivers all down your body. But you nodded anyway. "You have to promise me one thing, though." You turned around in his arms, now looking into his eyes and seeing that he seemed to be a bit scared. "Don't be mad at me." "Yah, how can I ever be mad at you?" You gave him an encouraging smile, letting him know that it's okay for him to tell you anything. "I-I got jealous seeing you with a hickey okay. I got mad as I wasn't the one who placed it there. I have wanted to mark your skin like that for months now and seeing that someone else did just made me mad. I'm sorry." It went silent for a minute. "Wait... Are you saying that-" "That I like you? Yes, yes I am. I have been liking you in a romantic way for a long while now, but never got the guts to tell you." You shook your head, stood on your tip toes and carefully connected his and your lips. It was a small, innocent kiss that holds a lot of feelings that you had been hiding for almost a year now. "I like you too Seunghyun. For almost a year now. I was scared that I would ruin our friendship if I told you." Your voice was soft, but as your faces were still close together he could hear you more than fine. "You should have just told me! I could have been the one that gave you that hickey." "Well, you are the only one that I will allow to give me those from now on." He smiled at you before connecting yours and his lips again, this time for a longer and more passionate kiss. You had never thought that he would actually like you back, but damn does it feel amazing to finally feel those lips on yours.