☹ life is like a bandaid ☹ it sucks ☹

Day 3

Hey so I'm feeling like crap as usual because of feelings. UGH!!!! I wish I never developed them!!!! 😭😭😭😭
But to go on is I have a boyfriends named Ian and he is SO sweet, and he's a total nerd like me. But the thing is, I met a guy a couple of months ago and he is in 6th grade (I know, I know. Don't yell at me) and he is actually sweet, funny, sporty, and HE IS A MUSICIAN LIKE ME!!! when I first met him I only liked his older taller brother Sam, but I've seen there is NO chance of me getting with him. But recently the SMYOC (Saint Mary's Youth Orchestra and Choir) went to go see a musical called "Anything Goes" and we sat next to each other, shared popcorn, and I rested my head on his shoulder at one point near the end, and most importantly, we had so much fun and he ended up buying me sweets at intermission. So this was when I first noticed feelings uughhhhh. But when I noticed it again was this Sunday, we went to an Earth Day event at the local wharf. So we sat and listened to each other, we played soccer, and when I needed a drink I said I was gonna find a water fountain and he came with me. When we were behind the only nearby building he said,"If this was later at night this would be romantic" he said it kind of quietly and I heard it, but not too well and then it processed and I asked him what he said and he said it was nothing and returned to being his usual goofy self.
This is why feelings suck. I have a boyfriend. Someone accused me of liking another guy named Franco and I denied it. And now I do like another guy. Life. F-ing. SUCKS!!!
TELL ME WHAT TO DO IN THE COMMENTS PLEASE!! 😭😭😭