I Only Meant To Do This To Myself

5 - Could You Be My Heroine?

5 - Could You Be My Heroine?
Sleeping With Sirens - Heroine

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Somehow when I woke up I was the only one without a hangover. Mike was by far the worst, he had a migraine and was puking. Kellin was still asleep, Jaime just had a little headache and Vic was up and ready but still complaining about how he should have never drank that much. I don't even want to tell you about the state that Of Mice and Men were in... Let's just say that Alan and Phil were outside, Austin, Valentino and Aaron were on and under the kitchen table. Wow.

"Morning!" I cheerfully say as I make some coffee. I only get grunts in reply. "Anyone want a drink? Coffee? Water? Aspirin?" I laugh as everyone slowly nods their heads. "I'm gonna go get Alan and Phil."

"Phiiil, Alaaaan." I coo, nudging them to wake them up.

"Whyyyy?" The ginger princess whines in response.

"Alan, you're on the floor. Outside." I reply. "And I'm making coffee, and I'll get you some food, water and aspirin."
As soon as I say this, Phil and Alan are pushing past me and making their way into the bus, I chuckle at them. Silly boys, thinking they can out drink me. Walking in, I shut the door behind me and make the drinks and then I make some French toast with fruit. I made myself a slice of toast and abandoned the thought of having some coffee and got water and green tea instead.

"That it?" Kellin leans over and whispers to me as soon as I sat down on the sofa next to him. I nod, "I'll eat more soon. Baby steps."

I ended up only heating half of the slice of toast before feeling like I was going to be sick. I drank all of my water and tea and then excused myself to get ready. I walked to my bunk and grabbed some of my clothes - I needed to go shopping some times soon... I had barely any clothes I hadn't worn yet left. Grabbing some black ripped skinny jeans, an All Time Low t-shirt, a black hoodie and my vans, many bracelets and my alien chocker.

I quickly ran a shower and cleaned myself. I'm not gong to say that I wasn't disgusted at what I saw in the mirror because then I'd be a liar. I couldn't help myself. Quickly checking to see if the door was locked, I kept the shower running and my music playing and grabbed a blade out of my make up bag and made some marks. I'm not going into detail on what it looked like... You guys get the picture.
Cleaning my thighs off, I quickly got dressed and did my make up. I decided to let my hair air dry today.

Putting my stuff on the bunk, I quickly popped into the living room to tell everyone that I'm going into the back room and told them not to come in. I walked quickly to the back room where the guitars, keyboard, drums and bass were. I picked up a Taylor parlour guitar and tuned it. Soon I found myself plucking out the tune to Therapy by All Time Low and singing along to it.

"Arrogant boy, love yourself so no one has to.
They're better off without you.
Arrogant boy, cause a scene like you're suppose to,
They'll fall asleep without you.
You're lucky if your memory remains.

Give me therapy,
I'm a walking travesty,
But I'm smiling at everything,
Therapy, you were never a friend to me,
And you ca–"

I stopped as soon as I heard Alan exclaim "Damn!" Followed by the rest of the guys shushing him. I put the guitar back in its stand and opened the door to see nine men, well boys, with guilty smiles and puppy dog eyes. There was an awkward silence, but it was soon broken by a muffled sound. It sounded like someone said "Why's she stopped?"

"What was that?" I ask, pulling my face into a frown. Vic slowly lifted up his phone to show that he was on FaceTime to Zack, Jack, Alex and Ryan from ATL. I nearly died right then and there.

"Shit! I'm sorry," I slammed my hand into my face, "I just butchered your song... I was way off key throughout that whole thing. Not to mention that I haven't played that tab in ages so it was terrible. And I –" I was cut off by Alex and the rest of the guys protesting against me. "What?" Alex said, genuinely confused.
"Long story short, I'm sorry that I played your song so terribly." At this point Jack took the phone off of Alex. "Hol' up hol' up hol' up. You think that was bad? Damn. You can replace Alex any time you want," Jack turned to Alex, "dude, your out of the band. She one upped you."
Now I'm most likely as red as Alan's hair. "Well, thanks... I guess?" I reply, smiling like an idiot.
"Sorry to cut this short, but my phones gonna die soo..." Vic said awkwardly. ATL said their goodbyes to the guys and I and we did them and ATL promised to spend lots of time with me at warped.

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It was now 11pm and the guys were all drinking and playing about whilst I sat in the corner laughing at them every now and again when they told me to take at least one headphone out. See, they were listening to cheesy as fuck music like Never Gonna Give You Up and Lovefool. I on the other hand was blasting All Time Low - it's just one of those All Time Low kinda days - , a mix of BMTH and SWS' new album Madness. When Kick Me came on I was instantly in a happy place because one of my favourite albums of all time had just begun and I related to this song so much. Even though I have finished secondary school, I still get my fair shares or bullies and insults in collage and on the streets. Fun. This album was one of those ones that you have an indescribable love for and you get butterflies when you listen to it. Kellin came over to me and sat down.
"Ugh. I can't dance any more." He laughed. I did too. Kellin took one of my earphones and started to listen to my music with me when he noticed his song Go Go Go was playing, he jumped up and shouted "THAT'S MY SONG!" I laughed at his excitement whilst the others rolled their eyes at him.

"I'm off to sleep now guys - see ya!" Jaime said and walked backwards out of the room, saluting us all. It wasn't long until Tony, Vic, Alan, Austin, Aaron, Phil and Tino followed. Of Mice & Men were staying in the back room because there were sofa beds in there. Mike sat on the sofa opposite me and Kellin after turning off the cheesy music. I unplugged my earphones and quietly played some 30STM out loud.

"So, not long until warped... You excited?" Kellin said, prodding my side. I made a dying whale noise.
"Umm, yes? I get to see all of the bands I love aaaand Luke is going to be there - and maybe Violet." I smile. So do the guys.
"Well, I'm gonna sleep too, long day ahead of us tomorrow. We're going home." Kellin smiles at the thought of home and walks off to bed. I'm still yet to find 'home', but I'm pretty sure the guys will show me it.
Wandering over to the other sofa, I throw myself down next to Mike and smile at him.
"You okay? You seemed really quiet all day today." I look at him in the eyes.
"Yeah, yeah. I'm just tired after playing the last show yesterday. I can't wait to show you our home, you'll love it." He smiles at me. It was that half smile that like only guys can do.
"What will happen after warped?" I ask, barely above a whisper.
"What do you mean?" Mike looks at me with confused written all over his face. Has he not thought that far?
"Will I be going back?" My voice catches when I say the word 'going'. No tears come though. Mike pulls me into a strong, protective hug.
"I can promise you that you won't go back. I won't let anyone lay a finger on you." Mike whispers, stroking my hair to soothe me. I tighten my hug on Mike and bury my face into his neck. It was then that the tears came. After a little while, I pulled back and laughed whilst wiping away tears, thankful I took my make up off earlier.
"God, I must look like such a mess. I'm sorry." I look down, still wiping at my eyes.
"Stop apologising, you look beautiful." Mike said as he tilted my head up by my chin.
"You're beautiful." He repeated slowly. Our faces were getting close together and soon there was no gap.
The kiss wasn't a frantic one, it was sweet, loving and careful. As if I would break under his touch.

Could he be my heroine?

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The next morning everyone was running about the bus, Austin and the rest of Of Mice & Men were quickly grabbing their stuff and saying goodbye to us all before heading home and soon enough we were on our way home.

Home.

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Crappy chapter from an author who is crappy at updates. Sorry about that.

Anywho, I thought I'd tell you that I saw 5SOS on April 5th and holy shit they were amazing! Michael's guitar solos were sick! There was also a guy dressed as 'Banana Man' and someone else had a light up banana. So that was interesting.

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Erin