Never to be Seen

Chapter 12

A feeling filled me entirely and I met his eyes.

I could see sadness in his hazel irises and that only made the feeling worse.

He loved me?

Love was such a strong word, it was something i had always thought of as such a strong emotion. So strong, at times I believed there was no such thing as love.

But looking into Zayn's eyes, I could see something. It was so genuine, it made me melt.

There was such a tornado of feelings whirling inside me, I didn't know what to do.

He loved me?

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath trying to control myself. A lone tear slipped from my eye and I felt a finger gently brush it away.

I slowly opened my eyes and saw Zayn looking at me, he looked exhausted and almost, nervous.

He left his hand on my face and the touch made my skin flame under his touch. More then anything, I wanted him to hold me and tell me he was going to take me home and there was no danger.

But that couldn't happen.

I had trusted him with everything I had, and he dropped me. He drove me to do crazy things to myself.

He drove me to do crazy things to myself?

Did this mean I loved him too?

I looked up at him, my eyes still glistening with fresh tears.

What was happening?

My heart beat was out of control as he pulled his hand away.

Why was I so confused? I loved him too, I was sure.

I loved him. I was too afraid to admit it but I do love him.

There is no doubt in my mind.

But this couldn't be happening.

He treated me like shit but I still loved him.

He almost destroyed me with one little move and I still loved him.

"Zara?" He looked at me with pain clear in his eyes.

I wanted to be able to say to him that I loved him too.

But I remained silent.

He almost gave me up.

And I still loved him.

Could I be anymore stupid?

I fell in love with my kidnapper?

But I still loved him.

"If you want me to leave, I'll go. I'll go if you don't want to see me ever again Zara. I swear I'll do it, but only for you." I looked up at him and my heart sunk when I saw tears in his eyes.

He looked so vulnerable, so pained.

"I love you. That's the only reason why I'll do it. If it makes you happy, I'll leave. I know I don't deserve you but" he closed his eyes and ran his hand through his hair. "Please."

It felt cruel to watch Zayn tear himself apart like that.

I willed myself not to cry as I looked up at Zayn with a blank expression, shielding the whirl of emotions within me.

He crouched down and looked at me through his teary eyes.

"Do you want me to go? Whatever makes you happy, I'll do it. Just because I love you." It was tearing me apart on the inside to see him like this, saying he loved me only to get a blank stare in return.