FLASHBACK~
i ran into my bathroom and slammed the door shut i unwrapped the test and did what the instructions told me to do , i layed the test on the counter and set my phone timer for 5 minutes and grabbed the test in my hand and and i sat on the cold floor , staring at the plastic test in my hand for a second then focusing my view on door infront of me , my whole life was now on hold. the timer on my phone went off telling me the 5 minutes were up, i slowly opened my eyes trying to hold back the tears that were threatening to spill from my eyes
i took a deep breathe and looked down at the test, right then the i stopped trying to holding the tears back and i dropped the test to the floor placeing my head in my hands while i sobbed
the test was positive , i was pregnant and at only 16 . thoughts raced threw my head as i quickly stood up brushing away a few stray tears from my now red and blochy face
"how can i do this alone?" i whispered to myself as i picked up the test from the floor tossing it in the trash bin and sitting on the edge of the bath tub , the love of my life was gone , he left for the x-factor a couple days ago , i was hurt, alone and now pregnant
i knew i couldnt tell niall that i was pregnant i knew he would just quit the x-factor and come back to care for me , as much as i needed to be in his strong arms and smell his scent i couldnt just rip him away from his dream
END OF FLASH BACK
My names Jewel im 17 and im from mullingar ireland , i knew niall since we were young . our mums used to be really close till my mum died when i was 9 , my dad didnt take her death to well and started drinking and when he came home drunk at when ever times of the night or the morning he would always storm angrily into the house i would wake up and go down stairs when i heard things being thrown across the house, smashing into the walls and when i saw him you could see the anger in his eyes , they were sorta black , he would always scream and throw things at me but mostly he beats me then the next day he acts like nothing ever happened . when ever my dad gets mad or stressed he comes into my room just to take all the anger out on me , he beats me every day for no reason at all. no one knows but niall he tried to protect me when ever he could but it never really worked . im 17 now and i still live with my dad sadly and it is truly hell he still beats me like he did when i was young and ever worse he tried raping me but when ever i refused he would just hit me and storm out of the room pissed. i still have several bruises and marks on my body that to people at school are just from me "falling" and hurting myself all the time but they arent . i started dating niall when i was 14 and we fell in love , he was always there for me when i needed him, whenever my dad came home drunk he would make an excuse to come over and protect me we would sneak out and go to the park and watch the sunset . he was truly the best boyfriend anyone could possibly have till he left for the x-factor . when he told me he was leaving i felt my whole world crash down , my heart broke , i couldnt believe he was leaving me alone , i had no friends thanks to my dad , people didnt want to be friends with the girl who self harms herself everyday ,even though the marks were from my dad beating me , but i couldnt tell them that. and niall and i broke up ...well more like he dumped me :( i loved niall and always will , he was my first love and first time and you can never forget your first. ,that was one of the worst days of my life when he broke up with me . supprisingly it hurt more than all the beatings i got from my dad.i was working at hooters to try and raise money to move away from my dad after he found out i was pregnant he kicked me out of the house and i moved in with my mate sean who was mutal friends of niall and when i got enough money i bought a new home for me and my beautiful baby girl Kylie ( Ki-lee-a) we live in a cute little flat in ireland perfect for the 2 of us but it had an extra bedroom for guest just in case sean came over to stay and help me with kylie . i made sean promise not to tell niall about kylie , i told him i would when i felt ready. which probably would be never.
