WELL GUYS I MADE FIVE I HONESTLY DIDNT THING I WOULD GET THIS FAR BUT IG I DID SORRY IT TOOK A MIN FOR ME TO POST THIS ONE
Well this has been the worst month ever literally. Yall all remember that best friend of mine i was hoping would come back because that was what he last told me. Well the other day he finally got on facebook and we talk he said he was never coming back because his caseworker said so. Ever since this i gave up idk on what but i just gave up. But this aint the worst of my problems at the moment end of year testings started Wednesday and on Tuesday i have to go talk to my fucking principle about some dumb ass shit that happened a week ago because i said something about this boy being cute and stuff and as the principle was talk all i could think about was that if i was a girl and said what i said nothing would have been said about it like wtf. The only this that worries me about this is that he said he was going to call his mom and talk to her about it and that probably is leading to more drama they just aint saying anything right now since we are having tests and if my mawmaw get involved my life is fucking over no joke. She knows im bi or well i mean i told her and all she said was no your not and its an abomination under god and shit like that and i really hurt me. she is the most important person too me and when she said that my heart broke in two. And now if she hears about this i cant even imagine how shes going to react. I mean when i came home that day i was stressing i could eat not till i took a nap to calm down. yea my life is so fucked up right now. But anyways back to my "best friend" who im never going to see again. I think god hates me i truly do i mean like me , my best friend and our mutual best friend that was a girl were all best friends lol. These two were more than just friends to me i actually had feelings for her and then i developed a crush on my best friend and at the end of 5th grade our mutual friend moved all the way too south Carolina and he moved which yall already know that, but since i cared for them he took them away and now that ik im never gonna see them again i was just gonna try and forget about them to try and help the pain. It worked with the girl a little but with him i couldnt mainly because my new best friend reminded me of him so much not really by looks just by the way he is and stuff except my new friend is bi like me omg ikr but hes with my new best friend that is a girl and i kinda have ig started to develop some what of feelings for him but im not sure if its because he reminds me of my old best friend or not. Even if its not one we are both taken and two i just found out that at the end of the year hes moving back to Florida. and im sitting here like wtf really ig god dose hate me he takes everyone away from me. BUT HEY thats life and life sucks its just a giant video game with only one shot to beat it but once you think u have it figured out everything changes an it never stops until you finally say game over.
P.S I DONT HAVE FELLING LIKE THAT FOR MY NEW BEST FRIENDS.
YOURS TRULY
KOLE CORDELL
