Just another purge to stop the gain.
I guess i could start this off as a diary entrance. But that shits boring
Hi im bree aalayah lily nice to meet you.
Anyway this all started when i was 9 the year my 'boyfriend' broke up with me because i was 'to fat' when really thats when ana and mia became my friends at first it was ana my parents were poor so i didnt eat.. my boyfriend said i was getting fat but how could it when i never had eaten. The times id eat was when i stayed at my grandmothers house but that was like gold to me because my nana would feed me soo much..
Mia came when i was 12 when i finally got food. But my parents started over feeding me. I felt gross my stomach had gotten so small that i could never handle food so id eat it the after run off and throw it up
The first person to realize that i wasn't eating was my dad he also heard me purging in the shower he told my mum then my mum hired a therapist i was soo pissed that i started going mute, i wouldn't tell them anything. They told my doctor teachers and then students started to find out to them i was a 'waste of time' so then i lost most of my friends i was depressed.
Ugh its starting to sound like a documentary! Or a diary entrance yuck! Time for a real story!
11:10pm
I drag the cool shiny blade down my arm virtually blood pools out like a tsunami i poor the random colorful pills in my hand and down them and swollow some water instantly regretting it
11:11pm
'I wish to die!'
Warm salty tears run down my cheeks as i take a few more shallow breaths i sob 'good bye to the ones that love me'
My eye sight starts going blotchy as darkness takes over. That darkness that everyone says is scary and consuming when really its comforting and welcoming me into deep deathly slumber
People say every scar you have will build your throne maybe that's true but in my word it brings hospitals, therapists, or mental asylums
Probably where all go when i wake up.
If.
Helllllllooo humans welcome to my book i have no idea if this is good so im nervous ugh
