Kiss Me Deadly Peter Pan

Chapter 25: Berries and Whispers Pt 2

After about an hour of sitting in complete silence, I thank them and stand.

"Thanks for the help, and for letting me eat a whole basket of berries" I smile.

"It's fine, thanks for the help too" They both say.

"I'll help you take these back to camp" I speak up and we all grab the baskets together and head back. We leave them in the food hutt and sit on the logs. The fire is unlit and the sky is going a little dull. I'm hesitant to ask about why they don't take orders from Pan...I'm hesitant to ask what is really going on. There's gotta be a catch to all this right? Pan says he is in charge. He displays that pretty clear to me, so why don't these two boys take orders?? Who are they taking orders from? Is it Felix? He is second in charge after all. Yeah 'second' ...why should I care anyway, it's not like I care about to this place. Well I used to but not anymore. It's broken my heart to be honest. Broken my whole world now I have nothing to live for. It's the sad truth and I guess that's why I don't really care what happens to me. I mean I do but...I don't know. My whole thoughts are just extremely confusing lately and I expect no one to understand, maybe I have a mental illness or something. I look up to meet with the appearing moon. Wow already?

"It seems to get dark here fairly quickly doesn't it, hardly any light, why is that?" I question.

"It's just the way things are here I guess, there's not enough light to balance the dark"

"What do you mean by that?"

Tobey shrugs. "Not enough good deeds, not enough beliefs or happy thoughts anymore, why don't you think the fairies come out anymore?"
I think about that. Now that I think about it, I haven't seen a fairy, ever.

"There are fairies here?"

They shrug

"We aren't sure anymore, no one is but we think there are, just that there's not many of them left, they are in hiding, no one has seen them for ages"

So fairies do exist. Ohh if only I could tell Suzie, she could be thrilled! So would mother.

We sat for what seemed like only 20 minutes, warming up by the fire that the boys had now lit.

"You know I really appreciate you guys helping me out" I speak.

"You did the same for us with the soup so it's only fair we return the favour...besides your quite badass and cute at the same time anyway" Tobey smiles.

"Oh...thanks" I whisper and twiddle my thumbs while slightly going red.

"But you know, it's quite weird, since you got here we are been getting more day light, more sun light, more blooming flowers, like before we never hardly got any sunlight" Simon chips in while twirling a dead leaf on the ground. Really? That's strange...

"Do you know why?"

They don't answer but after a while Simon whispers "maybe Neverland has taken a liking to you, likes your innocence, likes the way you think"

"The way I think?"

"Uhh maybe I don't know, maybe it's not you at all" he says unsure.

For some reason, I trust them now. They seem like they are telling the truth...though at the same time being cautious and hesitant to tell me more. I know they know more. It has gone awfully dark quickly now and is it because of me? No it couldn't be, why so? Does the island sense my feelings? Or...somebody else's? I stare at their faces and they look a little worried and cautious.

"Don't worry, I won't tell anyone" I whisper assuring. They smile back at me and nod.

Tobey gets up off the log and walks around the side and pulls out 3 bowls and hands into Simon and I. I look down and it's fish and chicken soap with veggies.

"Made this up before hand, we'll need to heat it up by the fire"

We hold it up front of the fire and wait till it heats before eating. I grab the spoon and drink some of the soup. Mm, delicious. A smile creeps on my face, a genuine smile. A smile I haven't had in a long time....well, not before I met Pan. I struggle to swallow the soup as to start to think about him again. His smile and his laugh as he would joke around...his touch on my waist, his lips on my neck...

I blink to reality and spit out all my soup from my mouth and take a deep breath in. What is wrong with me? Why can't I stop thinking about him? He's an asshole! You saw how he really is! What he did today, how he treats you. I feel like pulling my hair out.

"Are you okay?"

"Yeah I'm fine, I think I might go back to my Ce- I mean by room now" I swallow and put the soup bowl down. "Thanks for the soup"

"Anytime" they say and I begin to walk back to the tree.

I brush the hair from my face and open the door and close it behind me. The bed is made and everything is as it is. I sit down gently and pull my hair free and let it drape down my shoulders. I rest my head on the pillow and lie down on my side. I try so hard not to let out tears. Why am I being so weak? I'm stronger than this. Mother taught me better. I shut my eyes even though I'm not tired but forced to open them when I hear a knock at the door. I stare at it for a moment. Who could it be? Grabbing hold of the handle, I slowly open it to come in contact with the breeze of the night. It seems colder. I stop opening the door any further as I see who is standing at the door. I frown immediately and frustratingly try to shut the door but he holds it open. My heart suddenly starts to pick up speed and I begin to feel nauseous, like I can't breath. I stare at his eyes as he stares in mine but I shake these feelings out of my head immediately, what ever they are.

"Go away" I sneer at him and walk away and lie on the bed.

"I just wanted to talk" Pan says and shuts the door behind him.

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Authors Note:
Sorry for the lame cliffhanger haha. What do you think is going to happen in the next chapter? Do you think Pan is going to apologise? Or do you think he's going to be a jerk again? Are things going to get better or worse? Find out next chapter which will be published shorty. Thanks guys :) xx Vote and Comment if you enjoyed. It always makes my day.