"PERFECT"
I lay silent in my bed staring at the popcorn ceiling above me, a razor in my right hand begging me to break it open, tears wont fall from the two slits that sit on top of my face, ive been craying for far to long now. I cant take this anymore starving myself so I can finally become skinny drowning my face in makeup so I look like im pretty, telling everyone im fine when im literally dying, from all these secreats I keep hidden so deep inside of me that at any moment they can come out and attack me. I break open the razor with my bare hands and pull out the blade trapped beneath the plastic, i hold it in my hand as if it were a baby crying for me to give it what it wants my deilcate skin strives to meet the sharp piece of metal intwind between my fingers. I gently slide it across my wrist till a thick red substance drips heavily from this thin line that marks my emotions, I do it again, and again but this time the blood wont stop flowing in a matter of seconds its over goodbye, please dont worry about me ill be fine, I lay silent in my bed staring at the popcorn ceiling above me, a broken razor in my right hand lauging at my pain with the carved word "PERFECT" written right above my vain.
"LOST"
Im lost but im right were i should be. Im in a crowed but i feel so alone, How long can i just keep pulling the sleeves down before i wont beable to take it anymore can i really just keep pulling the wool over there eyes. can they not see it im lost can anyone even see me can you hear me screaming because im losing it im crying on the inside. they think im crazy they think im mad they call me stupid and worthless is this really home or hell on earth is there really a safe place up above im lost i dont know what to beleive im lost can you show me the way. Tell me im going to be ok i need some one to pull me out of my nightmare that everyone calls reality im walking but im not moving im lost help me. im lost but im right were i should be......
NAME THIS..............
life is hell we have to live some can smile and bare the flames and all the pain but I just cant bare it i hide so i dont get laughed at or get critisized, for how i handle pain, they think i choose but i dont, its like my mind beats me up inside and it replays all those days when all i wanted to do was scream and cry. your not alone they say but it feels that way, life is hell that we live some but choose not to.
10 feet under
It feels like im 10 feet under like the weight of the world is pushing me down further what the hell did I do to deserve all this pain, what did I do, why me that's what we all just want to scream sometimes but some of us are screaming it out every single day were crying on the inside, but its like were invisible we really don't even occur in there heads. Were nobodys just those kids with cuts on there arms don't hang with them they don't care about any one but themselves but they don't know we sapport eachother and we try to make others happy but we don't try and make ourselfs happy. Tell me what did I do to deserve this why me, what did I do and why is the world so cold.
Hurt
Feel broken down, my body aches
My heart it bleeds from past mistakes
Can't stop the tears, they fall like rain
The words are spinning 'round my brain
So scared and feeling so alone
The coldness fills my every bone
No food, no sleep, can't think at all
Each way I turn, another wall
This darkness haunts my very soul
killing me inside showing it outside.
sleep
