Trouble Times 4 {On Hold, Again. Sorry.}

"Baby Brother." ~ Chapter 20

Ashley's p.o.v.

Jacky walked with CC and I back to our room for an explanation of all the yelling and pounding. CC and I sat on the bed as Jacky stood in front of us. "Explain." Both CC and I said at the same time.

"Okay..." He started, but sighed deeply before continuing, "So long story short, Mason said he had dealt with self harm in the past. I guess since him and Kellin's break up, he kind of... Well, started cutting again." Jacky explained. I was speechless. I looked to CC whose mouth was hung open in shock. My eyes watered a bit. I knew Mason and Alexis had a past of cutting. Self harm in general. It broke my heart. It just- just shattered it into millions of pieces, knowing they feel so awful, and that they think they have to pay for shit they didn't do. I thought of them feeling like they needed to end their lives to find the slightest bit of peace. Just one shitty day with the world beating them down was enough to cause heartbreak to many. As if they don't get suffer enough, they're forced to suffer more because they're trapped under the spell- My bad, curse of that silver sharp heartbreaker. Andy had dealt with this as well and even now, it killed me to think about it. He'd come home just a mess, hide in his room, and it wasn't until much later that I found out he was mutilating his perfectly healthy body. Now the same shit is repeating with Mason. Am I wrong to assume Alexis may follow that path? "Uncle CC? Uncle Ashley?" I heard Jacky call.

"Oh, uhh, I'm sorry. I lost my train of thought." I said softly, clearing my throat of the rasp that interrupted.

"I'm going to talk to Masey." CC said.

"Me too." I sighed deeply. Jacky nodded and we followed him back to Mason and Xavier's room. Which reminded me that Chrissy and Xavier are at counseling. Ryan, Ronnie, and Ron are at an interview. Leaving Ronnie, Andy, Derek, and Jake running errands. By the time we got to Mason and Xavier's room. Jinxx was asleep on Xavier's bed with tears staining his cheeks and Mason curled in a ball in Jinxx's arms in his Pokémon pajamas. I walked with the other two over to Jinxx and I kissed his cheek. Poor thing. He has also dealt with this shit himself. I guess him having gone through it had the one and only perk of him being able to help Andy when CC and I couldn't. Now knowing his newest youngest brother is cutting as well, I wouldn't doubt that it is probably tearing him apart.

"Hey, Jinxx." Jacky started and shook his shoulder. "Let's go into our room." He continued softly.

Jinxx stretched slightly, losing his grip on Masey. "No, I need to be with Masey. I don't want him hurt..." He mumbled softly in his sleep.

I bit my lip. Before Jinxx could manage to tighten his grip on Mason again, I carefully picked the small boy up. Being mindful of any of the wounds on his body, not knowing where they were. While I held Mason, I looking over to CC and nudged my head toward Jinxx, signaling for him to pick him up and take him into his and Jacky's room. CC nodded his head slightly and picked Jinxx up, carrying him out of the room. Jacky gave me a sympathetic look before he followed CC. I turned to Mason's bed and laid him down. I kept all my focus on him. He had turned over, facing the wall with his knees to his chest. That's when I noticed he was awake and his sparkling brown eyes were staring out the window. I opened my mouth to say something, but before any word could leave my lips, Mason spoke up.

"I just wanna say I'm sorry before you give me back. I'm sorry I slipped up. It was an accident. I just don't think before I do and I don't realize that it hurts others because- because I'm the one in pain. I just added more pain... I'm so sorry, Dad..." Mason ranted with a voice that threatened to give out.

Did you hear that? Right there, listen... That was the sound of my heart shattering. The pieces of my heart falling and piling onto each other. He thinks I'm gonna give him back. He said he's sorry all for nothing. He doesn't have a reason to be sorry when he, himself is the victim. "Mason Kyle Purdy-Coma, do not apologize." I started. I sat down on his bed. "You have nothing to apologize for. I never want to hear you say and/or think we are going to give you back. I know- I know, you and Alexis are so used to being thrown back. You're both use to being used and being broken, just for the cycle to repeat again, but baby, I will never ever give you back. No one will ever take you away. You're here to stay forever." I said with a small, soft and sad smile.

Mason's teary and stained cheeked face turned to me. He crawled over to me and I pulled him in my lap, carefully. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry..." He repeated as his sobbing kicked up.

"Please, Masey. Don't cry. There is no need to. Baby boy, please..." I soothed. Now my heart started breaking more and tears welled in my eyes.

"I keep thinking you want to give me back, but I love it here with you guys! I don't wanna leave!" He said a bit muffled, seeing as he was crying in my chest.

*knock, knock*

I held Mason close to my chest as he cried. I turned to the door to see CC. Once CC heard the sniffles, he practically ran to Mason's side. Just like that, CC was quick to steal Mason out of my arms and placed him on his hip with gentleness. "Masey, Masey. No crying. Shhh. Shhh. Daddy's here." He soothed and bounced him lightly.

"I'm s-sor-sorry." Mason sobbed into the crook of CC's neck.

"Don't apologize, baby boy. No need. You're wasting your apologies." CC told him softly.

I got up and walked over to CC who was now rocking him back and forth. I started singing Carolyn softly as I ran my hands through his hair. Soon enough Mason calmed down and was close to falling asleep. "Masey, baby?" I started before he fell asleep.

"Hmm?" He groaned softly, trying to cuddle into CC more.

"Promise me, you will talk to us if there is a problem. No matter how big, or how small. You will not let temptation win. Promise you'll talk it out with us first?" I asked. Even I knew that was a lot to ask of a broken boy. Even Andy continued for a bit after we had a talk like this. It was easier said than done, but as long as he tries, it's all I can ask for.

"Yes Dad. Y-Yes Daddy." He whimpered softly. I shared a small smiled with CC, who continued to sway back and forth with Mason in his arms. Little soft snores were heard escaping Mason's lips after a bit more of rocking. CC laid him down in his bed gently and we both kissed his cheeks before tucking him in. We headed for the door and shut off the light. To try and keep spirits high and lift the spirits of those that fell low, when everyone returned home, we had a movie night, watching a movie of Mason's choice. Both Jacky and Jinxx stayed clung to Mason. He seemed a little better as the night progressed, but I'd be lying if I said my heart wasn't in my throat.

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