A Shout To The Blue [IchiKara/KaraIchi]

Chapter Three - Who

Small Author's Note before starting : I just wanted to say thank you to those who are still reading this even if I suck-- And for the support, I have prepared quite a show. Enjoy, my lovelies! <3

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I open the door and take a step outside. It's sunny, kind of. I remember walking outside with Ichimatsu, he'll always tell me "Don't you even dare compare the sun to how you feel." before I could say anything. As I walk to the cemetery, I think of him.

Ichimatsu.

Just saying his name feels as if I'm being stabbed. I can't take this. I need to clear my mind. But I can't do so without leaving him my good bye.

I finally get to the cemetery and see my family gathering around in Ichimatsu's grave. I walk up to them and they look at me with those teary eyes. If they knew Ichimatsu was to die, would they treat him any different? Would they tell him that he matters and they love him like they are doing now?

I look at his grave and get on my knees. I can't stay strong. I-- I need him.

"Why did you have to leave, Ichimatsu?" I speak.

Fuck, I can't hide how I feel. My tears keeps on coming out of my eyes. Stop that. Ichimatsu would punch me right now for being this way.

"DAMNIT ICHIMATSU!! Just when I thought stuff was getting better, you had to leave. What happened to being next to each other at all costs? TELL ME!!" I snap. I can feel my family crying and feeling sorry for me. I don't need those "sorry for your loss" bullshit. I need him.

"Karamatsu... It's time to go home." Osomatsu pats me in the back.

"Listen, everyone..." I stand up, trying to make myself look less pathetic. "I--- I can't live there anymore. Not with Ichimatsu's memory all around. I-- I need time to recover and find comfort. I'm moving out." I announce. The looks of shocked faces views me but soon enough they all agree.

"We understand. Please, do what you want to do." Choromatsu tells me.

I try to give them a smile but all I could was close my eyes. I begin to walk back home and think; Should I really do this? Where will I even go? How can I find comfort alone?

As soon as I get to my house, I grab my bags and begin packing. All these clothes... How long will I even be away? Doesn't matter, I guess. I just need to forget. I need to erase every track he left before I let this dark memory consume me.

Ah... These sparkly pants. Ichimatsu felt so furious seeing them. He would always kick me and tell me to change. Haha... Oh Ichimatsu. Why did you have to do this?

As soon as I finish packing, I exit the house. I feel my phone vibrate, someone's calling. I answer to see who it is only to get the words :

"Shittymatsu, when will you arrive here? Don't tell me you forgot about this now."