Beautiful

One

Emily
I watched over as Sam was still crying in his room.

"Why? Why couldn't I just love her?" he paused and started sobbing, "I love her now! More then i've ever loved anyone... But she can't love me back, cause she's what most people call 'past', or 'resting', but no... it's fucking death, she's dead for fucks sakes!"

Everyone was a reck after my death. Nash stayed in his room staring at a wall, writing in his journal, and sleeping, Sam stayed in his room crying and listening to the song he and Emily had both chose out together, Cam seems as if he's dead inside... he hasn't eaten much and barely finishes most meals, Jc hasn't smiled at all, and none of them were making videos.

My brother? He doesn't even know. They thought it would be better if he didn't find out until he's older so he doesn't do anything stupid.

The door that lead me back to life is now open, and I have permission to use it, but I'm not sure if I'm ready to go back yet...

"Maybe I just need to go to her." Sam whispered.

"Maybe I need to die too."

Fuck, I can't let him do that to himself... i ran out of the room i was in and looked around for a specific door, it was a brown door that was curved at the top.

Sam

Tears streamed down my face as I held the blade to my vein. 'Do it, she's waiting for you.' My thoughts screamed.

Flashback.
"Stop!" Emily giggled as my hands tickled her sides.

"Take it back!" I laughed.

"Okay, okay! I'm sorry!" She laughs.

"For?" I smirked as I continued to tickle her.

"You're not a- a loser for reading tw-ilight." She screams between laughs.

I stopped tickling her, smiled, then fell back onto the back so I was laying beside her.

"You're a nerd." She chuckled.

"What was that?" I smirked.

"Nothing!"

I sat up, looked into her beautiful indigo eyes and kissed her.

End of flashback

More tears came down as I pressed the razor against my skin, seeing the blue vein starting to pop up. As I was about to drag the blade I heard a knock on the door.

"Go away!" I screamed.

"Sam... Come on, you have to see this..." Jc mumbled outside the door.

"Nothing will make me happy anymore, there's no point."

"This sure as hell will.."

I sigh and placed the blade on my side desk. I walk towards the bathroom and splash my face with water so it doesn't look like I was crying as much.

I walk down the stairs to see Emily, standing there, waiting for me.

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Edited.

I'll post again today<3