Heartbreak Girl

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You call me up,

It's like a broken record

Saying that your heart hurts

That you never get over him getting over you.

And you end up crying

And I end up lying,

'Cause I'm just a sucker for anything that you do.

And when the phone call finally ends,

You say, "Thanks for being a friend,"

And we're going in circles again and again

AMBER POV

My phone rang. The ringtone breaking the quiet of my room, and ruining my sleep. I fumbled blindly at my bedside table, hearing small muffled thuds as I knocked little things off on to the carpeted floor. Finally, I felt the smooth rectangular surface of my phone. Well, it also helps that it's vibrating.

I swiped to answer, and still lying face down on my bed I mumbled weakly, "Hi Princess."

I didn't need to look at the ID to know exactly who this was. Only a handful of people would ever call me at 1.37 am. And this isn't the first time Krys has done it, I think this is the third time this week.

No one else knows it, but some nights she calls me up to say the same things, it's like a broken record. And the fact that she's having trouble moving on is breaking me.

Her trembling voice stops my train of thought. "Am," she cries weakly, "It still hurts. My heart still hurts."

As her voice cracked so did my heart. I could hear her sobs and my body wracked with her pain. Squeezing my eyes tightly shut, not for the first time I cursed the guy who did this.

Two months ago Krystal's boyfriend of two years from high school broke up with her. He begged her to understand, he didn't want to keep the pressure of a secretly relationship on her and slowly he was falling apart under that pressure too. And Krystal tried to understand, heck she DID understand. She was feeling the pressures too. They agreed to the break up, but understanding doesn't mean you don't feel the pain.

Three weeks after their break up, the calls began. I did my best to help, to listen, butslowly I could see her breaking and I'm going down with her.

"Shhhh," I tried to murmur soothingly, "It's okay, princess. It'll stop hurting eventually. You've been doing better recently, your smile is coming back. It's going to be okay, I'm always going to be here and you're going to move on."

"I don't know, Am," she sobbed hard, "Lately, I've been able to forget, but then at random times it'll hit me. It doesn't help that he's ALREADY found someone else. I don't think I'll ever get over him getting over me, Am."

"Hey!" I said in a hushed tone. I sat bolt upright, "You said it yourself, you've been able to put it out of mind, even just for a while! It means you ARE getting better."

You heard us right. About a month after their break up, Krystal heard from some of her old friends that he's seeing someone else now. My princess smiled and told them she's glad he's happy, but I could see it. Her lips smiled, but not her eyes. Her kingdom was falling apart and she was slowly going down with it. But I will never let that happen. I'll do anything for her.

"Do you think if I didn't choose to be a star, we'd still be together?" her vulnerable voice whispered through the speakers of my phone, "He loved me right, Am? We would've stayed together. Right?"

"Princess.... " I sighed,"There's no use in looking at 'what if', and you love singing and performing. This is your dream. Would you give up this life? Give up meeting me and the others for a 'what if'?"

"No," she said weakly, "I love you guys, but I just want to know. It's not because of me, right? He loved me. It's just because of the pressures from me being a star, right?"

Truthfully, the guy may have been her boyfriend of two years, but I don't think he was going to be her forever. He got a new girlfriend just a month after ending his long time relationship. How much did he really love Krystal if he could move on that readily? It's not that there's a strict time frame that applies to everyone. But that's four weeks to get over a relationship of two years, find someone new, get to know them and then date then. It's a really fast paced recovery under any standard.

Not to mention, the break was from not being able to cope with pressure. Life always has pressures. We have to learn to work with the pressure, you can't just abandon something the moment it gets tough. I think thateventually something else would've had him asking to break up. Add that to the fact that Krystal would never have gotten the chance to be a part of f(x), never getting to see her dream fulfilled... It wasn't going to be a long stable relationship.

But that isn't what she needs. This was just a 'what if', and what she needed was positivityand comfort.

"Am?" she called weakly.

"Yes, princess," I lied, "You guys might've stayed together. It wasn't you. It was the stardom and the pressure of keeping it hidden. You're such a loveable person, how could you twonot last?"

I smiled a little at her weak laugh at my lame joke. It wasn't much, and it was from a lie. But anything to make her feel better.

"Just don't dwell on the 'could've been' situation, princess," I begged her, "Just. Please, don't be stuck on it. Don't hate your life now. You're doing something you love, and you're still you. Someone is out there somewhere waiting to love you and take care of you. Don't regret doing something you love, because your prince is out there waiting for you."

I could practically see the small smile on her lips when she answered me.

"That was really deep for a llama," she joked, "But really thanks, Am. Thanks for being such a great friend."

Those words. It's the same every time the calls end. 'Thanks for being a friend'. But I'll take them. If she needs a friend, I'll be the best friend.

"Any time," I replied, "Get some sleep now, Krys."

" Night, dork. "

" Night, princess."

And we that the phone call finally ends. It's the same every time. She ends up crying, and I end up lying. I ran a hand through my blonde hair and sighed in frustration.

I guess I'm just a sucker for anything she does.

Things are going to be okay now.

Till the next phone call.

Then it starts again.

I feel like we're just going in circles again and again. But I don't know what else to say