May I Have This Dance

Chapter 8

Jack's POV
"Come on please come with us," Felix begged.

"No, I don't want to be the ninth wheel."

"But it'll be fun. You can be as loud as you want there," Mark tells me.

"I'm not going."

"Fine," Felix says giving up as well as Mark sighing sitting back in his seat.
What's the point in going when I'll be stuck by myself eating pretzels on the bleachers. I'd much rather be sitting at home playing Dark Souls than watching all of my friends having fun. Playing games sounds way better than that. So I'm happy that they finally gave up.
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Friday, the Homecoming football game where everyone just goes crazy even though we'll loose. Everyone is decked in the school colors of red and white. Mark and I walk up to the stands to go sit with our friends plus Lucas. I don't count him as a friend at the moment. Everyone else has, but I don't trust him enough. When we get to them Mark plops right in between Bob and Lucas. Big shocker!

He's happy Jack just remember that.
My hand goes into Felix's bag of skittles and I take a few. Wade is sitting on the other side of me watching the game intently. Have no idea why he's so interested in this. Makes no sense to me but I don't judge. People are going to like what they're going to like and I can't stop them.
"Hey Mark you wanna come with me to go get some popcorn," Lucas asks him in his deep voice.

"Sure," says way to excited.
They both stand up and go down the metal bleachers. Bob then turns around and looks at me.
"You had the chance and you fucked it up."

"It's just the dance. Plus they aren't actually dating so I still have time."

"I don't know Lucas seems to really fucking like him. He talks about Mark all the damn time. So you better move quick before he snatches him," Felix states which makes me get but angry. However I take a deep breath and look at my friends.

"Mark is happy at the moment and I'm not going to take that from him. He deserves to be happy way more than I do."

"Jack, stop you deserve to be as happy as Mark is at the moment," Bob says.

"Yeah and if Mark is what'll make you happy then we'll even help you," Felix adds.

"No, don't ruin this for him. He wants him and Lucas to be a thing so I'll let them. I'm not going to be a douche and make it all about me."
Bob and Felix just nod and go back to the game. Lucas and Mark come back smiling at each other talking about something. God Mark has such a wonderful smile. He seems to be happy around Lucas. Which is what he needs. He needs happiness in his life.

They announce the Homecoming King and Queen. Everyone claps and cheers for the two who won. The game soon starts up again after the half time show of the band. Which was pretty good I do have to say.
All of the guy's girlfriends get here and Mark has had Lucas's undivided attention the whole night. I tap his shoulder trying to not be the ninth wheel. Which is very difficult to do. Mark just continues to listen to his pointless conversation about baseball. After a few attempts of trying to get his attention I give up. It's like I don't even exist at the moment.
My body leans back onto the metal behind me. I loom at all my friends talking about the dance plans having a wonderful time. Everyone is so happy with each other and I'm stuck here being the biggest and loneliest wheel ever. So I decide to do something to enjoy myself. I walk up the bleachers and nobody seems to notice. Well, let's go cause some trouble shall we.

It only took $25 to convince the guy in the press box to let me do this. Oh thus is gonna be so much fun.
"Fuckbag takes the ball and runs down. He's almost the end li- it appears that fuckbag has been tackled to the ground by nut sling."
Everyone laughs at my ridiculous commentary including the guy next to me in the press box. My beautiful commentary continues until the principal starts to walk up into the press box.
"Sorry folks, but apparently captain fuck in the ass is coming to get me," I say before I bolt out of the door.
My feet move quickly under me as I go down the steps. All my friends are laughing except Mark. Even though he knows it's funny he's just not laughing because Lucas isn't. Which is completely stupid. Anyways I run down the field as they have a time out and go to the parking lot. Thank god that son of a bitch is slow.
I sit myself on the hood of Mark's mom's car. My eyes wonder up to the sky looking up at the beautiful stars. A trillion twinkle lights in neon blue. Painting the sky with light, but this beauty is soon over by Mark slapping me up side the head.
"What the hell Mark?!"

"What the hell with me?! What the fuck were you doing?! Do you know how embarrassing it is to be sitting with the guy you really really like, and have your best friend be a total troll?!"

"Actually yes I do!"

"Jack I'm trying really hard to get Lucas to be mine. So if you could stop acting like a total fuckbag for once and not screw anything up for me. That would be marvelous."
I'm taken back by those words that came from his lips.
He doesn't mean that Jack. Just calm down. You're not a fuck up and you know it.
"Fine," I choke out.

"Are you seriously going to cry? Don't make this situation worse Sean."
I take a deep breath and cry on the inside like a winner. Mark just looks annoyed and disappointed with me. Which just makes me feel terrible.
"Could you just not fuck this up for me? You've fucked up a lot of shit already. So could you just stop for a while."
He then runs off to his little Hollister model boy toy. A tear escapes my eye. Fuck crying like a winner on the inside. Just fuck it. I lay back on the car and look at the sky. Tears flood my eyes.
He's so right. I'm just a big fuck up and I need to stop. I need to get my shit together and not ruin his for him. He deserves to be happy.

Okay so a very sad chapter. Again I'm kind of rushing things because I'm getting too excited. So I need to chill.