My Alien Life

I have been living this alien life, as if I have come from another dimension. No-one knows who i am and to be honest i dont know who I am. I wish I could turn back time and undo all my mistakes and all my troubles. Being brought up on the streets with no dreams to save me.

Fate is fate and this is my path of life, with drugs and violence being involved as if I have just been eaten by a blackhole- this is what I can see blackness. My mum couldnt cope so she turned to drugs. I have had to bring up myself and my little sister, I cant have her seeing what I do, she cannot follow my path. I am not cut out to be her mum I cant take responsability for myself let alone her.

I am wondering if I could runaway and come back another day to see if anything is clear. I wonder if i ran-away and took my name from history if anyone would miss me or just be a remaning thought. I have never been thought about.

My mates behind prison gates because of me, they took the blame for me now are facing 23 years for a crime they didnt commit. I looked up to the sky to see if I could think of an answer, all I saw was the sun, and the sun rays, it made me assume that was the only place for me. The bridge from earth to heaven but the cloud was red, this was my place it was hell.

I have sent my little sister to her grandmothers, collected my last remaining items and set off. I packed nothing but my picture of suzie (my sister) and a knife this was all I needed. I went to where I knew I would be in peace.

I couldnt say bye so I left a letter in the cupboard and a photo of me there too. Suzie was only five she needed her sister but this is what had to be done.

My journey took about fourty-five minuet walk but there was one place I needed to go, the graveyard, I went to where my dad was burried.

"Dad I hope you can hear me, you can probably see what I have been doing and im sorry for not being the daughter you wished. But soon dad I will join you and we can be together again."

On his plaque it said

'Dad and husband, our family chain is broken, nothing will be the same, but as god chooses us one by one our family chain will link again.'

As I got closer and closer to the woods I started to think about Suzie and I sent her a telepathic mind message and I know she will recieve it.

I got to the woods (the reason for me chosing the woods is because when I was about fourteen my bestfriend got stabbed here and while I sat there i promiced him when I want to go I will come here.)

Just before I completed the goal, I needed to have the last cigarette I was ever going to have. Drag after drag until I got to the stump. Yes I was scared but I wanted to join my dad,

I pulled the knife from my bag, and dug it in right into my stomach. This was the end...

However a local dog walker had witnessed me and called 999. I couldnt hear much but all I know I was losing a lot of blood and the pain was unbearable. But I could hear police officers, paramedics, ambulances. All I could see was blackness, was I finally in hell or heaven. I could hear a womans voice calling my name, who was this? definitely wasnt dad, then I suddenly realised it was suzie! I quickly shot up, in agony. But I wasn't in a normal hospital.

The walls were grey, dull and horrid. I was in a prison hospital. Next thing I knew was that Suzie was escorted outside and I was put into a wheelchair. Realising where I was going I tried everything to get away. Nothing. I was sitting in the courtroom. The dog walker was a witness in the box. She weakly said her observational statement.

I later got put in prison for life. For tryed- suicide, drug dealing, basically what my friends took the blame for.

I got ten minutes to see Suzie whenever she came in, I had to tell her I wad back in a special school. On october 6th it was her 6th birthday I sent her a card, a note saying how 'school' was, and the combination ti the safe, which was all for her which held £100,000.

I suppose this is my new life, I owned this prison and they could do nothing about it. I just needed to wait until I was sent to America prison. Ten years had pasted id seen Suzie every week. But I was sent to America prison. I would never see Suzie again. I'd spent three weeks there when id actually been bailed out. Who actually bailed me out?