Beautiful

three

Sam

I looked in Emily's eyes, trying to find any sort of compassion or love in her eyes but I couldn't find any.

"Emily?" I asked.

"yes?"

"do-...." I paused for a second, asking myself if I should really ask her this, after a couple seconds of listing out the pros and cons I just forgot about it and asked her.

"Do you still love me?" I asked.

"I'm sorry, Sam" she said, sincerely looking into my eyes.

I was now searching for any regret in her eyes, as sadness clouded in mine. I know what that meant, as I couldn't find any regret in her eyes, I felt my heart sink into my stomach and I couldn't breathe, it was like i got the wind knocked out of me, and it knocked out all my happiness and hope as well.

"Why?" I choked, regretting what i said instantly... i don't even want to know the answer to that question, it might tear me apart even more...

Emily

"It's a lot that we're all going through a lot right now, maybe we should just take a break." I suggested, breaking eye contact and looking down at my shoes.

"a break?" he starts, "Emily, I tell you that I love you and you reply with "we should take a break"?" he said, spitting anger and fear, I could see him starting to break, little by little... It hurts me knowing I was doing this to him, but I can't force feelings for someone.

"I'm really sorry, but I just lost feelings for you and I don't know what to do..."

"What did I do? Can I fix it?" he paused, tears forming in his eyes, "Please Emily, i don't want you to go..." he choked out... you know that crack in someone's voice when their about to cry? sam did that, and my heart broke as it happened.

"You didn't do anything, there is nothing to fix... I just don't have feelings for you anymore and I don't want to be in a relationship that I'm not happy with." I explained, tearing up a bit at the fact that I could see Sam slowly tearing apart and breaking down, it reminded me of when Nash had said such awful things to me, it broke me down and I fell so far down that I didn't want to get up, I was scared at the thought of me being happy because I knew that I would get excited then push it away cause i knew i didn't deserve it.

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