Learning To Feel Again

Chapter 5

You know that feeling when you're scared, but you don't want to be? That's how I feel at this moment. Right now I'm laying in my bed trying to get the courage to get up. What time is it anyways? I reach for my phone and check the time, '9:32'

Sucking up all the courage I have, I leave the comfortable feeling of my bed. Leaving my pajamas on I head down stairs. I go to the kitchen and decide what to do for breakfast.

Cereal? Bacon? Pancakes?

Cereal it is. Now where does he keep the bowls around here? Hunting for the bowls, I finally find them. And of course they're on the top shelf. Standing on my tippy-toes, I reach as far as I can, but still no use. "Damn" I mumble. I hate being short.

"Need some help?" Asher's voice pops into the desert like kitchen.

Ignoring him I continue to reach for the bowls. I hear his footsteps walking closer to me, but I ignore them. Until I feel him right behind me. His warm breathe hitting my neck, making my hairs stand up.

"Here" he grabs the bowl for me. Reluctantly I take it. "Thanks" I quietly say in monotone.

"Alex." he pauses, "About yesterday."

"Forget it. It's not like I care what you think"

"Okay, but still. I'm sorry. I had no right to call you that and I don't know you, but I would like to" Ugh him and his stupid charm. Nope Alex. You're not forgiving him that easy. 

"Why? I'm just some slut."

"Because Alex... I like you. At least I think I do." he admits. Holy shiz-balls. Didn't see that coming. How can he say that. I'm happy he did, but how can he say that? I hate that his little confession brought butterflies into my stomach. Bad butterflies we're mad at him.

"Well that's good for you." I keep my harsh tone and stern composure.

"Alex please. Forgive me. I like you and I know you like me. Remember yesterday during breakf-" before he could finish Ethan barged in, "Hey, what are you two doing?"

"Nothing" we said together. Me and him look at each other.

"Sure. Okay, well today is a chill day for you two because I won't be here" he laughs, "But Alex you are not allowed to leave this house. At all." he emphasized the last part.

"Um why the hell not?"

"Your dad doesn't want you going off on your own" he just doesn't want me to fucking see Lucas. It's not like I'm gonna go have sex with the guy. 

"I can take her" Asher added in. I wouldn't want that either. 

"Sorry, but no. I... I mean he doesn't trust anyone with his girl" Of course I know he is lying, but does Asher know? Probably not.

"Whatever." I glare at him

"Okay."

I ignore Ethan while I finish getting my breakfast. Pouring some Lucky Charms into my bowl and milk, I go and sit on the stool. I pull out my phone and text Lucas that the plans have changed.

'We can't hang today. How about another day?'

Not even a minute later he texts back, 'Awe :( Okay we can hang out when you're free.'

'Alrighty' I sent the text and put my phone away. 

There seems to be a lot of tension in here today. Hmm. I know I have tension with both of them, but what about those two? What's going on?

"Asher do you have work today?" Ethan broke the silence.

"Nope. I have plans"

"And those are?