WHALIEN 52

Seven

Jeon Jungkook

Menghela nafas. Sekali lagi. Ia menggigit bibirnya sendiri.

Ia ragu. Sungguh. Ia takut. Namun hatinya tak bisa dihentikan.

Sesak yang ia rasakan semakin menjadi setiap detiknya. Menatap orang itu. Melihatnya tertawa, bercengkrama ringan dengan teman-temannya.

Sakit. Kemudian mereka bertengkar. Ia kalut. Sungguh. Kenapa orang itu memperlakukannya seperti ini? Sial.

Tidak. Hatinya terlalu kebas dan kepalanya terlalu bebal.

Dan kini ia berlari. Tepat di depannya. Mencoba menatap orang itu tepat di mata.

"Hyung ..." lirihnya. Ia menunduk, menggigit bibirnya sendiri dan kembali menatap orang itu.

Menghela nafas. Nada-nada rendah itu pun keluar dari bibirnya.

Ya, ia bernyanyi.

"I can't overcome the sadness in my heart, Another one of my sleepless nights as I endure it once more ..." Ia menatap lekat netra itu.

"I really don't mind the sadness, It just absentmindedly wakes me up again in the morning.." Tatapannya melembut.

"The injury seems worse than I thought it'd be," Ia menelan ludahnya sendiri.

"The pain seems to dig in deeper than I thought it would .." Ia menahan nafasnya.

"In the countless nights I spent resenting you .."

"It feels like I'm in hell." Ia menatapnya lemah. "Please stay by my side~ Please remain here~"

Entah keberanian darimana, ia meraih tangan itu. "Don't let go of my hand as you're holding it in yours.."

Ia menggenggamnya. "If this takes you a step further away from me," Satu langkah. "All I have to do is take a step closer, isn't it?" Ia tersenyum canggung.

"A thousand times in a day, your face repeatedly appears in my thoughts" Tatapannya ke bawah, menuju ke tempat yang ia pijak. "The sharp words you say to me .."

"Those empty eyes and that cold expression.." Ia kembali menelan salivanya kala bayangan itu melintas begitu saja.

"You're quiet a pretty person aren't you?" Ia menaikkan wajahnya dan tersenyum sedikit terpaksa.

Tatapannya lemah, sebersit rasa sakit terpantul dari kedua onyx gelap miliknya. "Please don't do this to me..."

"You know me well enough, don't you?" Maniknya berkaca-kaca. Sebisa mungkin ditahannya agar tak bergulir begitu saja.

"Hyung~" Ia menarik nafasnya dalam. "Those gently words, we made our four days really lightly.."

"Above all, I don't even know what even more scarier than forgetting.." Ia tersenyum pada dirinya sendiri.

"I don't even know you that well.. But it's time to say goodbye with full of regrets.." Ia menunduk, menutup mata.

"Growing poorly day by day.. Oh shit, the beautiful memories." Ia menggigit bibirnya pahit.

"Just looking us together at the water by the flower garden Only one million memories The longing of incense spewing out of me..." Ia kembali menatap netra itu.

"If I see you again, I will give and show my everything to you." Kini digenggamnya kedua tangan itu. "I will hug you tightly with all my heart."

"I came here to tell you exactly everything I wanted to say For real, for real Until the depth reaches your arms.."