Afraid To Love

Philophobia 2

-Aliza-

"So? Saan tayo?" I asked Ambs.
"NBS nalang tayo. Doon din lan bagsak natin for sure. I don't want to roam around the mall again."

I just nodded my head yes. Well, totoo naman eh, I remembered last year, sabay kaming tatlo bumili ng gagamitin namin. We can't decide kung saan kami pupunta kaya napag-isip isip namin na, iikutin namin yung buong mall hangga't mag settle kami sa isang pabilihan. And ofcourse, in the end, NBS ang bagsak namin. Sumakit pa tuloy mga paa namin.

The two of us went straight to NBS. Si Amber, dumeretso agad sa mga binder. While me, pumunta ako sa books section. Hindi naman ako mapili sa mga notebooks eh, kaya mabilisan lang akung makakahanap ng gagamitin ko.

Tumingin ako ng mga bago na books. I can't find one. That's why I tried to read the old ones. One book caught my eye. 'Teardrop' by Lauren Kate. I tried reading the summary at the back of the book. Unique. A girl that can't cry. Kinuha ko yung book at linagay sa basket. Kinuha ko na rin yung second book niya which is 'Waterfall.' Naghanap pa ako ng mga ibang libro. And I saw the book that I've been longing to buy since, Sherlock Holmes by Conan Doyle. Gosh! I so love this book. Noon ko pa ito hinahanap. Wala ng pag-aalinlangan kinuha ko na. Today is really my lucky day.

Satisfied with my books, I headed to the binder section at pumili ng mga gamit ko. When I got there, I heard two girls fighting.

"This notebook is mine! You bitch!"
"I got this first!" W-ait. Isn't that Amber's voice?!

Hinanap ko agad kung saan yun. And yes, I'm right. I saw Amber fighting with a girl. The girl's hair is dyed blonde. Kitang kita mo na dry na. Her face is full of make up, like a clown. Her clothes? It covers nothing. The girl looks like a slut. Sorry for the term. But that is the best word I can think of to describe her.

"This is mine!" The girl defended.
"Sorry Miss, but I got this first. Magtingin ka nalang ng bago." Amber told her and snatched the notebook and continued to walk to the cashier. The girl stomped in annoyance.

I followed Amber in the cashier.

"War freak." I told her. She looked at me and smirked.
"It's not my fault. If she just asked properly for me to give the notebook to her, then we won't have a problem. Besides, I'm not good at dealing with those kind of girls."

I just laughed at her. One thing about Amber, she doesn't back down without a fight. Maslalo na kung alam niya na siya talaga ang tama.

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Here I am reading a book. Waiting for the twins to get ready. Mauuna na sana ako sa school pero sabi nila, sabay na raw kami.

Today's the day I'll enter hell. I sighed. Too much of negativity. I think it's time for a change? Nah. I say this to myself everytime school starts. But I end up not doing it.

To tell you the truth, I'm nervous. I don't know why. My hearts beating faster minute by minute. Argh! I hate this.

Okay. Aliza, relax. Everything will be fine.

I'm at grade 11. Senior year. It kinda sucks kasi nadagdagan yung years na mag-aaral ka. Pero okay lang. High School life is better anyways than College life right? I mean, there is more pressure on college.

I snapped out of my thoughts when Kuya Sam called me.

"You ready Iza?"
"I'm always ready." I answered sarcastically.

Kuya King just laughed. Grrr. Kinakabahan talaga ako for an unknown reason.

Pumunta na kami sa garage at pumasok sa sarili naming mga sasakyan. Tag-iisa kaming lahat. Me, Kuya Sam, Kuya King, Dad, and Mom. Pero, siempre may family car din kami. If your wondering kung may car ba si Ate, well, meron. Pero, haist.

My car is Lexus LS 600H. Same as Amber. Well, let's just call it 'friendship goals.' Parepareho kaming tatlo, Me, Amber and Katelyn.

Ang sasakyan naman nina Kuya, parehas din. Magkaiba nga lang ang kulay. Audi A3 Sedan ang sakanila. The color of Kuya Sam's car is, Silver while Kuya King's is Black.

Nag convoy kami nina Kuya papuntang school. And, as expected, all eyes on us. Well, our parents own this school.

Just like other schools, merong mga popular, normal ones, and ofcourse, nerds. Kabilang kami nina Kuya sa popular. And FYI, we don't like it. Everyone should be treated the same right?

Wala namang mga bully dito. Ang mga bully lang siguro yung mga gold diggers and sluts slash plastics.

We parked our car in our own parking lot at dumeretso sa sarili naming mga barkada. Magbabarkada kami nina Kuya, pero magkakasama lang kami kung may outing. Grade 12 sila eh, magkaiba schedule.

I started to look for Kate and Ambs. Nung hindi ko sila nakita, dumeretso nalang ako sa may bulletin board at tinignan kung ano ang section ko.

Great, just great. Section Sun. Argh. My hatest section ever. Why? This section always expect good things from you. I want to be part of the Moon Class. It's full of freedom there. Section Star is the other class. In there, it's neutral. Pero, depende naman yan siguro sa mga classmates mo diba?

Hinanap ko rin ang mga pangalan nina Ambs at Kate. And yehey! Magkakasection kami. Last year kasi, sad to say, magkakahiwalay kami. Kate sa Section Sun, ako sa Section Star, and the lucky Ambs, sa Class Moon.

Knowing na magkakasection kami, I headed to our classroom. It's in the second floor. Pataas palang ako classroom, rinig ko na ka agad ang sigaw ng aking kaibigan. Amber. Well, she's kinda loud and nevermind. Kalog nalang in one word.

Nakita ko siyang lumabas ng classroom and she shrieked 'literally' nung nakita niya ako. I immediately covered my ears. Gosh! This girl can really be loud! Nakakain ata siya ng megaphone.
"ALIZA!!!!!!!!!!!! BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Andito ka na!" I stopped walking and looked at her.
"Lower you voice woman!" Sigaw naman sakaniya ni, Kate. Lumabas siya ng room ng may hawak hawak na libro. My eyes twinkled nung nakita ko yung title nung book! OMG! Masquerade! Yung matagal ko ng hinahanap na sequel ng Blue Blood at Revelation. Tumakbo ka agad sakaniya at yinakap siya. I snatched the book from her.
"Thank you!" I said to her. She raised her eyebrows.
"Hindi yan para sayo. Huwag kang feeling." I pouted and murmured 'I hate you.' Lumoob na ako sa classroom at linapag yung bag ko sa pinakalikod. I looked around. Nice! Lahat ng mga kaklase ko mga kalog. Guess we won't have any problem. Haha!
"Babae! Tampo ka nanaman eh! Para sayo naman talaga eh. Here na oh." Kate told me.
"Ish ka! I hate you parin."
"Ikaw pang may ganang magsabi ng 'I hate you.' Return the book then." Kate told me as she smirks.
"Oo na. I love you na po." I said with smile.

Haist, sana naman, maging maayos itong araw na ito. I hope this day won't be hell.