We used to be a good friends..we used to do everything together…shopping, eating and even sleeping together in one bed. However…everything changes when he finally found someone that he love, someone which is not me. I become silence again, just like before his family adopted me at the orphanage house. Suddenly I lost the place to play nor to talk…I just spend my free time studying and helping my mom doing house work, but sometimes, my mom won’t let me..she rather me going out with my friends at school…
Telling the truth…I’m not collecting enough friends rather than my brother at the school. Seriously…no..and most of my friends is my brother friends, and all of them are boys. How could I hang out with them???there is big NO…
I seriously hate this kind of feeling…the feeling that I had for my brother. I love him…and I like him…the way he always comfort me when kids at school bully me…really make me touch. The way he touch my hair, the way he look straight into my eyes…all that make me crazy over him. Sometimes the way he call make my names already make me unable to stand properly. He always smile back and chuckles back at me when he saw I was stumbling, look like he know what did I feel inside for him..but…nop….he don’t know anything.
I still remember when the first time, I heard the rumor about him trying to hooked on with a girl that same class with him. Which mean that they are at the same age..same class and they meet everyday. I heard it from his friends. It’s weird not see her brother at the café instead of his friend, but then they explain that my brother trying to get that girl.
My heart seems fall apart when I heard that…so it’s true that he like that girl??? I try to look on at the girl, damn she is so beautiful, no wonder that my brother like her so much, and if I was a guy..i surely will like her.
“Sun Young ah…are you okay????your face look so pale…” Sehun, my brother best friends suddenly asked me…right after I heard the news…
“eh????” I’m shocked…and I’m off the guard… he look weirdly at me..
“I says….are you okay???you doesn’t look good…” Sehun repeat his question.
“I’m fine Sehun oppa….i’m fine..” I answer him
“okay…kajja…let’s go back to your class..the break time almost end” he pulled my hand and asked me to stand and walk beside him. The other always stand quickly.
The boys waves goodbye to me when I’m about to enter my class. All of them turn and start walking..but him…Sehun..he just stand there and look at me…I waves again to him and get into my eyes…and wish that he already start to walk to his class..
Weird…he is weird…he never acted like that before…
My world seems so empty after that, my brother finally get that girl heart and both of them started to dating. He even introduced his girl to us during the break at the café. Starting from that day, the girl start to having lunch with us…oppa don’t talk to me like before, he didn’t take any food for me either, he do it for the girl. He didn’t wait for me to finish my lunch either…
The most hurtful thing is..oppa doesn’t wait for me anymore after school. He started to giving some cute excuses…after that I finally realize that he spend that time to send his girlfriend went back home. Oppa don’t love me anymore. My heart aches so much and I always crying on the way home…
After giving some many excuses…oppa finally asking me to wait for him after school, he want to walk home with me…I just nods my head and smile back at him…finally..i can talk to him…god..i miss him so much….i wish I can hug him just like I always do to him…but I know..i know I can’t do that anymore. He belongs to someone else now…and it’s not me…
