the never ending friend ship.

dear diary,

my bestfriend is 16 today. hes having a huge party in california with his family im so excited. Its strange having a famous bestfriend you know hearing them sing on the radio shivers rushing down your spine. Tristan is on tour right now with his band mates who form The vamps so im flying over tonight to see him. Tristan and me have been friends since primary one so that why we get told we have a never ending friendship. I miss him, all the nights we would sit and study together when he came to tay with me while his parents were on vacation. Some people have thought we had feelings for each other because we were together that much but its not like that at all. Tristan is really funny and i like going on tour with him because i have a good time hanging out with the guys and it feels good again. 

                                                                             love and hugs Tammy xoxox

dear diary, 

im on the plane on my way to see Tristan im actual so excited i havnt seen him for like 4 months as he has been recording can we dance. He is perfection i tell you. The vamps are picking me up at the airport and im goiing to finish there tour with them before tristan will com stay with me. His beautiful face chhers me up even when im in the crapest moods i cant imagine life without him

                                                                            love and hugs tammy xoxoxo

 dear diary,

tristan has tottally changes since last summer he is gorgeous stunning sexy just wow. is this normal because i think im faaling in love with my bestfriend i cant be ive never thought of him that way. just the way his face lit up when he saw me get off that plane his arms around my waist mines around his neck squezzing each other like mad. oh crap no it cant be........ im in love with tristan

                                                                       love and hugs tammy xoxoxoxo

dear diary,

  I can't believe I have fell in love with Tristan we have been best friends for so long and yet I have never felt anything like this. tomorrow they are back on your and our first stop is France. so as it was they boys last night of freedom Tristan took me for a meal and to the cinema I was so tempted to grab his hand but I didn't know how he would react.....

                                                          love and hugs Tammy xoxooxox

dear diary,

wow France is a beautiful country the boys have been working hard and for most of the day I have slept I really want to tell Tris how I feel but just haven't had the time as he's been preforming in Paris . I stood at the side of the stage with my heart in my mouth. watching him preform just sends shivers down my spine he's beautiful .   

                                   love and his Tammy xoxooxoxox

dear diary,

the boys have been acting weird with me well all except tris I wonder why. last night we went to a crazy party there was celebs everywhere and in the middle stood me an average city girl with very little talent. I accidentally left my diary open on my bed before we went but the boys wouldn't loo would they?

love and hugs Tammy xooxoxoxoxox

dear diary,

so I was speaking to brad this morning and he admitted he looked at my diary I felt so hurt. I didn't think he would do that. I feel so embarrassed like everyone know how I feel about tris but him arghh boys are somewhat confusing.

love and hugs Tammy xooxoxoxoxox

dear diary,

I finally had the balls to man up and tell Tristan how I felt oh god. so we sat down in my room and I explained it was weird seeing how much he had changed and how amazing he has become. I told him how gorgeous I thought he was with my cheeks turning a shade of red.

love and hugs Tammy xoxooxoxox

dear diary,

so after a long conversation with tris I came out with it a told him I fancied him his reaction was wonderful but left me curious.....

love and hugs Tammy xoxooxoxox

dear diary,

ahhhhhh tris like me back o just wonder why he hasn't told me before mmmm. he's perfect this is perfect how could it be better falling in love with your best friend in Paris while watching him do the things he loves.

love and hugs Tammy xoxooxoxox

dear diary,

me and tris went on a date. an actual date my heart was smiling and butterflies were dancing in my stomach. we went to a restaurant then a walk to the effile tower. it was great but I knew it would be over soon our last night in Paris then we all flew home for a while and Tristan was going to see his family members guess it was good for me considering he stays like 3 doors up and I'd get to see him as much as I want but I had a worry burning inside me would this be the end of his feelings towards me or would we take this further I was destined to find out.....