I wrapped you up in blankets
To protect you from my storm
Hoped it would keep you safe
Hoped it would keep you warm
But the thunder shook your soul
And the blankets were fried
By lighting
My hopes burned along with the fibers
It killed every inch of your being
To this day
I blame my self
And I know that no one could ever love me
But I pray to the universe
That one day someone would love me
Because along with your being
Went my heart
No longer in my chest
I think of your smile and I hear it kickstart
It takes the feeling of being depressed
And now your name is etched into the wrinkles of my mind
They say the pain will go away with time
But it's been a long time since I've seen you
And it tears away at my skin everyday
I wish I could say I don't love you
I wish that I could really say
But then I'd be a girl made up of lies
Closure is what I wanted from you
Instead I've gotten broken thoughts
And shaky cries
I smoke because of you
Maybe hoping that I will die
Wondering about inadequacy
Wondering if I wasn't good enough
I guess I wasn't good enough
Slit wrists
I guess I wasn't good enough
Fake smiles
I guess I wasn't good enough
Sleepy mind
I guess I wasn't good enough
Pills
I guess I wasn't good enough
Suicidal thoughts
I guess I wasn't good enough
When I die
Will I be good enough?
