fucked up | taehyung

4. tears and hugs

The rest of the day was uneventful. I went to my last period, got a good grade on another art project, and went home. Jin has been taking me home everyday since its on the way to his house. He doesn't really have to but he insisted. He claims he doesn't want someone to attack me or bother me on the way home. He's always been like a big brother to me. He's been there for me for years and I couldn't be more grateful.

    "So that was weird with Yoongi today, huh?" Jin laughed and parked outside my house.

"I mean, I guess. I miss him, to be honest. " He widened his eyes and we both got out and went inside my house.

    "Do you want to talk? You know I'm here for you, right?" He said while he sat on the couch and I went to the kitchen to get some snacks and drinks for us.

  I grabbed some chips and two bottles of water and sat next to Jin. I looked over and gave me this "I know you want to talk so spill it" kind of look. I sighed.

   "I know you are. I just don't know anymore. I miss him, that's all. I just miss his presence. I miss HIM. I miss who he was when I fell in love with him. He's been distant, obviously since the break up and I can't help think that I'm ruining the group. I mean, he is the reason why I met you guys. I don't even deserve to have you guys as my friends still. But, I am glad he's trying to go back go his old self. It makes me happy." I vented all at once and took a big breath. I looked over when I all I heard was silence and once I did, Jin gave me a huge hug. If anyone came in, they would think we were cuddling on the couch. I don't care, though. His hug was warm, inviting, and comforting.

     "Mia...my crazy, crazy Mia." He mumbled while stroking the back of my head. "It's okay to miss him, you know? You don't need an explanation. You were in love with him. You don't need to explain to ANYBODY why you miss him. All that stuff that you're feeling is okay. It's normal. But Mia...I don't want you to hide your feelings, either." He explained while looking through the window. I could feel tears brimming around my eyes but I tried to stop them. I didn't want to cry.

   "I haven't even seen you cry. Every time you see him, I get worried that you'll break but you don't. You're all numb inside...it's as if your feelings haven't caught up yet. But Mia, if you ever want to cry, just cry. It's okay to cry, my love." He whispered and kissed my forehead. After he said that, I just broke. All the feelings that I thought were thrown away, were just actually on hold. They came to me all at once and I just started crying and I couldn't stop.

    "Shh, shh, it's okay. It's okay. Let it all out." Jin breathed. He was right that I haven't cried. I thought something was wrong with me. I thought it was normal for girls to cry automatically. But, I just didn't feel anything until now.

   I stopped crying about an hour later and that's when Jin got a call from his mom saying that she needs him to come help her with something at home.

   "But Mom I-"

"No it's okay, Jin. You can go." I sniffled ," I need to take a shower and do my homework anyways. I'm fine. I finally let it all out. Thank you. I needed that." I reassured before smiling at him and adoring him.

   "Are you sure? I mean I can always ju-"

"Yes!" I laughed," Now go! Listen to your mama!" I playfully yelled while pulling him up from the couch.

   He laughed and said, "Okay mom, I'm on my way. Oh and Mia, my mom said hi."

"Hi!!!" I honestly felt so much better after I cried. I just felt content now. And I have Kim Seokjin to thank for that.

  "Okay bye mom. I love you. I'll see you in a bit," he said and ended the call after she said bye. He looked at me and gave me one of his huge hugs once again. I love these kinds of hugs because it's like a bear hug. Though, Jungkook and Jin are the only ones who hug me like this. Their hugs were just so inviting and warm, I loved it.