The 378 (Camren)

Chapter Five - LJ/CC Mixed Perspective

CAMILAS P/V

JULY 3RD 2016

13 MONTHS AND 30 DAYS LEFT.

I place three knocks on the counselors door, still confused from what happened moments ago. After I hear a muffled 'come in' I open the door.
'Cabello,What can I do for you?'
'Well I'm kind of embarrassed to ask you this but-'
'Don't ever be embarrassed to ask me anything, okay?' he says, smiling gently.
I try hard not to roll my eyes. It's such a shame that even the counselor of this place is corrupt. I smile through my disgust and ask him my question, 'Can I make another call? I know we're not to call right now but I forgot something-'
I get cut off. 'Cabello, it's okay I'll walk you to the phones. You have about 30 minutes before dinner. Do you think that will be enough?' he asks. 'Or do you want to eat in your dorm on your own time?'
I curve my eyebrows in disbelief and confusion. 'No thank you sir,' I say rolling my eyes but trying to be polite.
'Okay, perfect. Let me escort you to the phones.'

I dial the only number that I've memorized besides my own as quickly as I can. As the phone dials, I worry it won't connect.
'ELLO chanho from SCI Port Charlotte.'
I can't help but smile at Dinah's voice, her soft giggle comforts me, almost making me forget why I called. I take a deep breath and close my eyes, 'Am I gay?'
'Hahahahahaha an inmate for SCI Port Charlotte is trying to contact with the question if she's gay. Hahaha.'
'Dinah! This is serious!' I yell. I love her but she has always had a hard time taking me, or anyone else for that matter, seriously.
'Oh my god sorry K, where is this coming from?'
'You have no idea what I just did,' I say.
'Top to bottom,' she says eagerly.
'Well there was this girl next to me on transportation, she was humming Carmen so I started singing the words to her because you know how much I love that song. So we started talking. I swear, D, she is so god damn beautiful and mysterious. Her eyes are like the green part of the tropical sea shore, I literally get lost in the patches and depth in her eyes. And oh my god I asked her for her name, and she told me to call her by her back number! Her freaking inmate number!' I whisper-yell. 'Then I was like, why won't you tell me your name? And then she said, I want you to stick around and unravel me!'
'Zayumm chanch kinky,' Dinah says.
'Honey this is nothing, listen up, she called me cute and I was so embarrassed but it lifted me up, I felt so warm and weird. Then I said I really wanted to know her name and she said I'd have to find it! So I was like, how? And then she said that I needed to SEARCH HER!' I yell louder than expected.
'WHAT?!' Dinah yells.
'And Dinah, I searched. I searched everything. I don't know what came over me I don't do this type of stuff. But I didn't even hesitate, not one second. I freaking felt up this girl body to find her prisoner ID. Her thighs, her boobs, her butt, everything.'
'Hahahaha ya lil' sinner,' Dinah says, laughing.
'No Dinah, I felt indescribably amazing, a little horny even. I swear this girl shakes something up in me, she makes me want to push my boundar-'
'Karla?' Dinah says calmly.
'Yeah?'
'Why are you asking me this?
'Because I don't understand these feelings. I've never felt like this before... ever.'
'Well, I don't got the answers,' Dinah jokes.
'I see your Kayne West' impression has improved,' I laugh.
'But Karla,' Dinah says, her voice already turned serious, 'only you can figure out these feelings. There's nobody you know better than yourself.'

LAURENS P/V

JULY 3RD 2016

14 MONTHS AND 30 DAYS LEFT.

Disclaimer: I purposely put in some typo's because someone is very high and drunk and I'm trying to get her sloppy speech across thought is was funny lol. If you find it annoying leave it in the comments and I won't do it again. Have fun reading xx

'Mani? You there?' I ask.
'AY MY MAIN HOE! Are the bars as cold as they say?' she yells. I can hear by the background noise that she's in a club.
'Are you high?'
'But of course, Lo, you know me. I GOTTA STAY HIGH ALL THE TIME!' she yells, barely articulating the words.
'Normani! Please go outside, this is serious! I'm fifty shades of fucked up and I need your help,' I say anxiously.
'Yo calm yo pussy bitch, I'm walking out.'
I ask myself the question once more in my head before I say it aloud and won't be able to go back.
'Kay I'm out, wuzup?' Normani says bluntly.
'Am I gay?' I ask.
Normani snores, 'yeah I saw you checking out my tits. Hahahaha.' She laughs loudly.
I role my eyes, Normani is my best friend but she smokes more than fucking Miley Cyrus. Moments like these I just wish she would take me serious for once.
'Normani! Seriously I'm calling you using one of my very precious phone calls and I would appreciate it if you would fucking listen!'
'Hey hey hey, calm it I can listen. I'm your go-to chick you know it,' she says, still sounding woozy as hell. I know she is trying, though.
'I am serious about the gay thing...' I say.
'Why? W- where is dis coming from? I thought you very much enjoyed ridin' that D!' she yells jokingly.
'Well I don't know maybe I'm bisexual, either way, do you think its fits my "profile"? If I would tell you I'm gay right now, would you believe it?' I ask.
'Well zuhh I'm ur bes friend, I'm not going to not believe you when you say such things,' she says comfortingly.
'No I mean do you think I'm gay? Would you believe it as in, everything makes sense now?'
'Well you're not an obvious lesbian but if it works for you, even if its just a vaaze or a way of looking for comfort in the "big bad world of cons" then do it. Or whatever it is that your going to do after this converzayjun. Who is it anyway?' she says, still falling over her own words.
'Who is who?' I ask confused. I know exactly what she means but I'm trying to beat around the bush, I don't like discussing my relationships and feelings with others, especially if they're high and might not be able to take my, already rare, vulnerability seriously.
'You're not gonna tell me you got the dyke vibes from your bunk bed so who is it? Come through!' she says.
'68.'
'93,' she says.
'What...' I say confused.
'Huh,' Normani says.
'I don't know her name, I call her by her back number.'
'What the fuck.'
'And I told her I want her to stick around to unravel me,' I say.
'Lo, are you ever going to cut out your vague-as-fuck tumblr language,' she says.
'It's not tumblr language you idiot. It's called poetry.'
'Yeah vague as fuck.'
Normani and I are very vulgar and open to one another, others always think we're fighting but it's comforting to me. It makes me feel like I can say anything without having people think I'm mad at them.
'Call it vague but she loved it.'
'Tell me everything already!' she says full of excitement.
'Well she started singing Carmen to me because I was humming the song, so we started talking about Lana and we just hit it off. Then a couple hours later she came to my dorm and I fucking told her she was cute! I didn't even mean to. Then she got red as fuck and I thought I had fucked up but then we went to her dorm and she really wanted to know my name so I caved but not without a catch,' I say catching my breath.
'Oohh come through!' she says, energized.
'I told her to search my body to try and find my prisoner ID...' I say expecting a big reaction.
'FUCK YEAH BITCH! GET IT! So did you get dinner?' she yells clearly into my story.
'Oh my god Normani... I literally met her like 6 hours ago' I say, shaking my head.
'Well thats your loss.'
'It was really weird though, as she was touching literally all of my body parts I got nervous!'
'Wait you got nervous?! Damn that girl has an impact on you!'
'I know it freaks me out! Anyway, my heart starting racing and I could barely breathe. The strange thing is, she is not at all a girl I would normally go for, she has these big brown eyes and cute little cheeks and she doesn't curse, she keeps saying freaking,' I say in confusion. 'But her innocence kind of makes me want to toughen her up.'
'Lauren,' Normani interrupts. 'What was your question again?'
'Am I gay?' I say confused.
'Yes,' Normani confirms.

note: i'm almost done with the next chapter, shit's getting a little more exiting now so you wont have to wait a month anymore sorry about that. oh follow me on insta for updates : Fuckingharmony