Eyes and Ties

Knowing

Castiel rolled onto his back to smack the alarm clock silent. His breath shuddered on the way out. It was one thing to be ready for being fired, but this is different. Dean didn't even say anything about packing his things. Just to be there at the office first thing. What happened last night made him want to curl into a ball from shame and fear that what Dean has in store for him is going to be a lot like last night.

Castiel closed his eyes trying to lull himself for the thousandth time to sleep. He'd rather not go in today. He just needs to sleep.

Charlie's Star Wars ringtone blared into the previously silent room.

Well there went that idea.

He shuffled to the dresser to answer the damn call.

"What Charlie?" He heard a strained chuckle on the other line.

"Castiel freakin Novak, Care to explain why Bossy Mc-Scared-Me-Straight came up to me and told me to let Castiel Novak know to meet him in his office when he got here?" Charlie hissed into the receiver.

"I'll tell you when I leave his office," Castiel murmured. He could hear the impatience in her voice as she ended the call with clipped conversation and a 'get your ass here ASAP'.

It just hit 7:30 and Castiel was standing awkwardly out side of the office building. Anxiety flooded his veins, causing a feathering heat to speed up his heart rate.

Castiel stared up at the building, his eyes lingering in the 7th floor where Dean's office was.

Taking a deep breath Castiel's shake hands pushed through the main entrance, his trembling legs forced him past his and Charlie's cubicles, and took all Castiel had left to press two little buttons separating him and his Boss.

He stepped up to Mr. Winchester's assistants desk, ignoring the side glance she gave him as she left him sitting on his sofa in the office.

"Mr. Winchester will be with you in a moment," her dainty voice did nothing to sooth the knot in his stomach.

Long minutes passed by with Castiel listening to the offbeat of his heart and tapping his fingers in tune to a internal lullaby on repeat.

You're okay. Castiel assured, it's not gonna be that bad.

The door swung open and Deans loud laugh brought Castiel out his reassuring bubble. Dean didn't even acknowledge the man sitting on his couch, instead he made a bee line to his desk and sat talking to his Bluetooth ear piece.

"Don't worry Zach it will be done. Tell the wife I said hello," a pause "Alright I'll see you tomorrow."

It was quiet. The only thing Castiel focused on was the fabric of his dress pants.

Dean cleared his throat causing Castiel to jump slightly. He didn't dare to lift his blue eyes.

"Mr. Novak," Dean's voice was low and husky, and it made Castiel's palms sweat but he didn't answer.

Dean stood and made his way over to Castiel stopping only a foot away.

"Mr. Winchester," Castiel said finally. He was so proud of himself that his voice didn't crack.

"Have you thought of how I should punish you for last night?"

Straight to it then.

Castiel shook his head, he only thought about rape. He thought of all the scenarios that will all lead up to him doing what ever Dean asked. He thought about how much it shocked and scared him knowing he wouldn't try to stop Dean if he ever tried to take him.