Only you (A ThatcherJoe/ Youtuber fanfic)

Joe Flashback Special

A/N If you're sensitive to Suicide, please don't read this. 

Just a little warning for you guys x

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*Flashback to Joe's teenage years*

Joe's POV:

I couldn't take it any more, my life couldn't be worse. My parents had split up, I was bullied, my life was going nowhere. Not only that, I had no friends and it was because I was weird and different. Some say different was good, but not when you're like me. Everyone hated me and to be honest, I don't blame them, I hated me too. Which is why I wanted to end it all.

I'd been depressed for weeks, months even. I'd lost my best friend in a car accident and I'd been alone since but nobody cared. Nobody even seemed to notice. I thought maybe if I harmed myself, it wouldn't hurt so much. I couldn't speak to my sister about it or my parents. So this was the easiest thing.

I headed to the bathroom and opened up the cabinet to find two tubs of pills. My Mom had moved out and Zoe was at her friends, my dad was out shopping so now was as good a time as any. I poured them into my hand and put them in my mouth as I forced them down my throat, again and again until the pills were gone. That's when it went black, it was over.

Or that's what I thought.

I opened my eyes to bright lights and a pounding head. A tear escaped my eye and a small groan from my lips. Of course they didn't kill me! How is that possible? I looked around to see my dad hunched over looking as if he'd been crying and as if he'd seen a ghost. "Dad?" I strained my sore throat. "Joe!" He smiled and came closer. "I was so scared! Why did you do it?" He asked looking as if he was scared to know the truth.

"Why? Because I'm lonely, I lost my best friend, my parents split up, nobody cares about me! Oh and because i'm bullied, I had no one. Oh and maybe because i'm depressed!" I shouted slightly and pulled up my sleeve. He seemed shocked. "Why don't you say anything Joe? You're so stupid! We don't know this unless you speak up, tell us this!" He shouted. "How can I?! You never listen anyway! Haven't you noticed?! I stay in my room, in the dark, I barely eat, I don't sleep, I listed to depressing music and I'm never with anyone else! So you should have guessed. So much has changed with me and you never notice!" I screamed, hoping he'd understand. "Look i'm sorry about that but you could have said something. Not let it get this b-" I interrupted him out of frustration and anger. "Let it get this bad! You're a parent! It's your job to look after me, care for me! Notice this! Make sure i'm not trying to kill myself with sleeping pills and ibuprofen!" I roared. "Just leave dad!" I shouted once again and he headed towards the door, slamming it behind him.

Why do I even try with him?  

A/N This is not the whole flashback, I just wanted to update for you guys. The rest of the flashback will either be 1 or 2 more parts.