Tears of the Possessed

I couldn't think of a part title so I'm just going to say this is the full thing

Point of view: Jacob
Age:13
Prologe:
I've had a strange ability since I was a kid that I sometimes never wished I had. I'm able to communicate with spirits without assistance, yeah I know it sounds crazy but it's true. It's been passed down my family for three generations, my grandfather was the first to have it. Ever since I learned about this part about my family I've had to keep it secret, which I never really minded until someone special came into my life. Except I couldn't tell her because my mother was always so strict about the people I tell.

In June I came into contact with a demon for the first time, an Imp - a low level to be precise. Although it became stronger by the negativity it created, to the very point of it being too strong for me to exorcise on my own. After months of trying to get rid of it I realized that it was far too powerful for me to handle and I knew it was soon going to go beyond messing with my family, and that it was soon going to get to the one I care about most, the love of my life. To pretect her I made a deal with it, and from that day on that demon was inside of me, which was my mistake.

Main Story:
It's getting harder and harder to keep my control, yes it's only part time possession but I keep on snapping out against my will. This isn't me, this isn't who I am at all. However it was my only choice to make the deal, it was the only way to protect her. Now it's also even harder to keep my secret away from her when I am in control, but I can't worry about that now, I have to just stay relaxed and not let any negativity in so it doesn't take me over.

I still can't believe this is all happening, I have a demon inside me and I can't tell anyone. If I told my mother she would go crazy and try to break the deal (which will probably make the demon start wreaking havoc again), if I told my sister she wouldn't even care, if I told my father he would learn about my secret when he doesn't even know, and if I told "her" I could possibly lose her for good. It's just too risky, I have to keep this to myself. Dammit, this is just another secret I have to keep.

(One month later)
I lost control of myself again because I got too angry. I can't believe I let it get to that. Now I just about lost her anyway, I'm going to ask my mom permission so I can finally reveal our secret to her once I get the chance, I'm tired of hiding it and she might understand why I've become like this. She's still mad at me for what I - no - that creature from Hell did. But even if I don't get the permission I'm going to tell it anyway, I'm tired of hiding something that's so important to who I am from someone who's even more important to me. It's time she learns the truth.

I wasn't able to get permission, but I don't give a crap anyway, there isn't anything that can stop me. I know she's still mad at me for snapping out so I'll have to write a note, she won't listen to me any other way. Tomorrow will be the day I tell her everything, the secret of my family, the demon, every single last bit of it.

I now told her and it's gotten worse, she now left me, this hellish being is angry with me for revealing it's existence, and it's just about to take on full control. As I got home I broke out in tears, it's strange because I never cry anymore, I even thought it was impossible for me to shed any more tears, considering all I've gone through. I now wanted it out of me. While trying to protect the ones I care about I just made everything worse. I was punching my wall and shouting "Get out of me, you've ruined my life enough, go back to Hell where you belong"."I'm tired of it all, the damage has been done. Please just go away, I break the deal. Don't ever come back again". At this point my mother had heard me and walked in the room, she saw me in tears and noticed the marks on my ribs and collar bone, the marks of demonic possession. I then explained it all to her, about why there were no troubles with the demon for the past month. The demon was inside of me. She then told me to calm down and take her hands, she then used some biblical verse on me, I don't know which one is was though and I didn't memorize the words, however I'm soon going to look it up from the bits that I remember and learn it. The demon was then released from my body, my marks faded and my eyes were back to normal dialation. I was myself again, I was free from it all.

(One week later)
I told the one I love that I broke the deal. But I'm still recovering and trying to fix my mistakes. I don't know how long it'll take but I'll be back to normal eventually, and it'll be easier to be myself now that the demon is gone. And I'll never do something like this again, it's too risky and I don't want to lose control like how I did.
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