Catching Up With Myself

Emily

Paige's POV

I glance at Emily as we leave the parking lot. She looks so beautiful backlit by the moonlight. I didn't know it was possible to get butterflies just looking at someone from afar like this. It's an amazing feeling. Like I finally know what everyone was talking about when they talk about liking someone so much.

As we were on the way back to town I start to blare the radio to drown out my voice as I start having a conversation with myself out loud. I am not sure when I started talking to myself like this, but it helps me solve a lot of my real problems when my head just isn't working enough for an internal conversation.

'I really hope I don't make a fool of myself tonight.

That's just like you Paige. Make a fool of yourself and she will be sure to not want to see you again. She is going to run because you're an idiot and she is going to see this soon. Everything you touch screws up. The only reason you are even near her is because Mallory knows you better then you know yourself. You never would have had the guts to ask her out on your own. The gym as a date? What a moron. You can't be romantic at the gym. You are sweaty and smell. That's not romantic.

What is wrong with you Paige! Get it together. She asked you out tonight, after she saw you sweaty and smelly. Emily likes you! I don't know if you can blow it tonight. It will be ok. Get it together!'

As I stop freaking out my sense of where we are kicks in. Emily only lives a few minutes away from my house. How did I never see her before? I know she is a few years older than I am but I couldn't have been that blind before. Could I? Suddenly the music is cut off and I start to hear ringing in its place. I look over at the dash to see its Tamsin calling. Uh oh, I hope this doesn't mean she said no. I press the answer button on the wheel.

"Hey Tam. What's up?" I say before she says anything.

"I SAID YES!" Tamsin screamed into the phone. "Lauren asked me to be exclusive with her. And I said yes. How did it take her this long to ask?!" Tamsin seemed to be over the moon about Lauren asking to be her only girlfriend.

I couldn't help the big grin that was on my face now. "Congrats, Tammy." I say laughing. I knew she was going to say yes because Tamsin has been complaining to me for a couple weeks that Lauren hadn't asked yet. I may have let it slip to Lauren that Tamsin wanted to be asked. It was nice to know that two people who had been together six months without 'committing' to each other, can still get happy about simple things like this.

"I'm going to let that slid for now. Paige, she asked!" Tamsin was so happy I couldn't help but laugh again. It wasn't like her to be this excited about anything. Even when I introduced them back in tenth grade, she wasn't this happy to even meet Lauren.

"I am glad Tam. Can I call you back later? I'm actually on a date right now. And we just pulled up to her house. I love u both. Give Lauren a hug for me ok?" I explained to Tamsin while I pulled into Emily's driveway behind her.

Tamsin made a noise I don't think I've ever heard her make before. "You're at her house! I hope you don't do anything I wouldn't. Wink wink bitch." She laughed a wicked laugh. "Alright, have fun babe. I want details tomorrow! Have a good night Paige" And with that Tamsin hung up the phone and left me to Emily.

As the call disconnected, the blaring music came back on. I scramble to turn it down because I feel it's too soon for Emily to know what bad taste I have in music. I sit for a minute and just watch Emily get out of her car. How graceful she moves even when doing something simple. I turn my car off and grab my bag and make sure my phone is in it. I look back up to see Emily coming to the side of my car and opening the door for me.