When love hits

Chapter 1

My heart was heavy, along with my body.

I felt like I could drop to the floor any second and I wouldn't move, tears strolled uncontrollably down my face, I always hated crying infront of people, even him.

"Stop trying not to cry, it's okay" he sobbed while stroking my knee

Please stop touching me. I can't breath, I literally feel like I'm going to die. And no, I'm not being dramatic.

"I don't know what I'm going to do" I whispered

"Me neither...I love you so fucking much Anna" He cried

My heart was breaking into a million pieces as the seconds went by. Why does life have to be so...cruel. Josh is the love of my life, but we both know this would never work, love couldn't even save this one.

He was going to university in Oxford, and I in Manchester. We had been trying to make this work for a month now, but the 3 hour train journeys were taking the fun and excitment out of seeing each other. It was now becoming a chore.

The sad thing is, this relationship isn't ending on hate, or anger. We're simply doing it because it's no longer making us both happy, or keeping us healthy. We're both barely sleeping, barely eating, barely fucking.

And what's a relationship without that? That may sound very modern and with lack of love, but, what is a relationship without sex? You need to make love to your other half, it's what keeps you so connected and excited.

"I love you too" I muttered, too caught up in my own thoughts

Josh reached into his bag, as we both sat in my cold, damp, and dark dorm room.

Winters aren't looking too pleasant here.

"Even though we're splitting up, Anna. I got this for you, I know this might make it abit harder but...I love you, I'll always love you. I want you to have this" He spoke while passing me over a small box

The box was dark purple, with a white ribbon tied around it. What had he got me this for? A breaking up gift? Because if so, I never got the memo that this was a time for celebration, so he'd be getting fuck all.

I opened the box and tears streamed down my face that made it hard to see, I wiped my eyes quickly and lifted the necklace out of the box.

A small gold heart, it was simply beautiful. I turned it over to then see

"Forever x" engraved into the back of it

"It's beautiful" I smiled while staring back at his tear stained face

"Good. I'm glad you like it, babe" He smiled back

We both knew this was the time that we would part, there was nothing more to say, nothing more to do. We had been speaking about this since 10am this morning, it was now 7pm, and his train came at 7:30pm. We just hoped time would work in our favour just this one day. But it hadn't, and his bags were packed. All that was left to do was say goodbye.

"I better-"

"Yeah, you'll miss your train" I interrupted, I didn't want to hear it

"I don't want to go" He sighed

"Me neither" I pouted

He grabbed me quickly and pulled me into a tight hug. I wanted to stay here forever, and I would, if possible.

You might be thinking to yourself, what, another pathetic love story? Another cliche love story? If they loved each other so much why didn't they both just go to the same uni?

To  go university has always been my dream, I don't come from a very wealthy family, and me going to uni is the only thing we all have to be proud of, I've had cards off my aunts, uncles, cousins, nanas, you name it, I've had a card off them or a congratulations or a "I'm so proud of you" one way or another. So when I got accepted into Bristol, and not Oxford, well, that's where the problem started.

Josh is incredibly smart, he offered to come to Bristol, but all he had ever talked about was Oxford, I was never going to stop him from going to this dream university, just to settle for Bristol, just for me. I would never forgive myself, it's his happiness over mine. Isn't that the way relationships work? Because I hate it sometime. The only outcome we're getting out of this decision is just pure misery.

He slowly picked up his bags and walked towards the door, the door opening seemed like the loudest noise ever, I felt faint.

"You are the best thing that has and will ever happen to me Anna Chadwick" He smiled as he looked down on me

"Ditto" I winked while getting teary eyed again

"I'll love you forever, I hope you know that"

"I'll love you forever too, Josh"

He smiled one last time at me as I could see he was beginning to cry again, I held my tears back and the lump in my throat became bigger and bigger. He turned around and I closed the door behind him.

My whole body fell to the floor and I couldn't even try to stop it, my hands were sweating, my eyes were streaming, my brain was still trying to figure out what was going on.

I'm only 18, why does this feel like the end of the entire world? It was only 2 years...I'm so young. I have so much life to live.

But why does life only seem worth living when Josh is in it?

A/N Hey guys! I'm back with a new story :) How are you all liking it so far? Tell me your opinions and suggestions! Feel free to message me too, thank you so much for all your support on this account and my previous one! Can't wait to share more stories with you all :) xo