To The Boy Who Stole My Heart

A Stolen Letter.

Dear you, 

Hey, how have you been? It's been a while....

Okay, I'm just going to get to the point, I miss you. I want you back. I screwed up.... badly, I know. I know how much you cared, I know how much you supported me, I know how hard you tried to keep the relationship going, and I know how much you loved me, And I threw it all away. When I wanted to try and follow my dreams you were there, telling how amazing I was. When I needed someone to talk to you were there, with a hand to hold. And I honestly can't say if I was there for you, and for that I will forever be sorry. I don't think I was ready for a relationship at that time. I want to try and make it up to you.

I remember when we were little and on a rock your wrote "I love you." and gave it to me and said it was from my dad. I knew you wrote it. I still laugh a little at that, one of my best memories of you. I even remember when we started dating and you were going come visit for a bit, I wrote on a rock, and it said "I love you." but you weren't able to come and visit that weekend...  You know what? I can see it in your eyes... I see a little glimmer when I talk to you, I can see that you still care. You may try and deny it, but I can see it.  There are day I just wish I could have you back. There are days where I am having the worst day imaginable, and I wish that you were there to tell me "Everything going to be okay, you did your best." and you would hug me again. But I know that is almost impossible now that you are with her.

When I see you with her my heart melts, because I know that could be us, but I screwed up so badly. I see you kiss her and my stomach sinks. She's nice, don't get me wrong, and she treats you way better than I did. But its took me seeing you with her to realize how good you treated me, and how much I need you in my life. And honestly, I'm ready to be in a relationship. I'm ready to be there for you, I'm ready to be a hand to hold when your having a bad day. I wish I had the courage to tell you all this, and then hope you would say "lets give it a chance.". But I would never ask that of you. You're happy. I can't ask you to give up your happiness to try and work it out with me.But I don't deserve you, and  It would be selfish. They always say, if you love someone... to let them go. So I'm going to have to let you go.

Maybe one day it will be meant to be, and if someday you come knocking at my door standing soaking wet in the pouring rain, I'll be there, I will be ready. And at our wedding for our vows we can each write on rocks "I love you." But until that day comes, I'll be here, as your friend. But just know... I will always love you.

Love,   Amorea.