They say your circumstances and mistakes don't define who you are, and I believe that but others don't seem to see it that way, and they make it known by the way they treat you when they see you, the sly comments they make which are obviously directed at you, you just have to brush it off your shoulders and go about your business because you know they have no idea what you going through but they sill have something to say. They don't know the trials and tribulations that have been put in front you. Were they disappointment because I feel in love or was it because of WHO I feel in love with, was that the mistake I made, all my life I have been told to go with what my heart tells me, "do what your heart tells you to do" and that's what I did so why's this situation so different from all the other times I have used my heart.
You see my life wasn't this complicated, I had a good life as far as I was concerned, I was popular, i had and still have the looks, I had a boyfriend, but most important of all I had a family that cared about me and loved me, my parent might have not been there all the time but they loved me and would never let anything happen to me.
I stand by everything I have done and I will always stand by it because the fuits of my labour make me whole, they are my light in the darkness, it seem cheesy but it's true without them I don't know where I would be right at this moment, I'd probably drowning in my sorrows feeling sorry for myself but they give me the hope live and to carry on with life.
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2 years ago
La da, La la, La da
Waking up, up
La da, La la, La da
Well it's time, for a change
Don't know those sad, sad songs away, today
Won't let the sunshine go to waste No way, nooo way
The sound of my alarm rang loudly in my ears, I switched it off but laid in bed for a while but I was quickly brought back to my scenes by the thought of my brothers going into the bathroom firts and messing it up before I went in there erm..... No I don't think so and anyway it was their fault their on -suit bathrooms showers wernt working. I got into the shower and let the water just drip down on me as I went through the thoughts in my head, I quickly came back to reality and had my shower and got out to get dress, I stood there looking for clothes to wear I decided on a pair of skinny navy chinos, a blue and white crop strip top and a pair of brown punched brogues, I put on a tiny amount of make-up on to complete the look, when I finished I took a look in the mirror and was satisfied with the outcome and picked up my tote bag with all my school books already packed for me ( thanks to Maria our maid)
"Oh my god sis you loo...k nice for once in your whole interior life" announced my brother Logan with no brain what so ever, I wonder how he's gotten through school all these years.
"I would say thank for that erm what can I call it slight complement but I know u were being an ass so piss off" flipping him the middle finger
"No problem sis I need a favour, could u give me a ride to school my car is in the shop"
"Sure but only because I'm in a good mood"
We walked to my car making small talk about nothing really, "so who's the new girl in your life, I know how you change them like your underware?"
"there is no new girl, you know I don't date, I see girls I'm not really ready for dating it gets too complicated I'm all for having fun bebe "he had that cheeky smile "and anyway I'm a player can't be
tied down by a girl" I burst out laughing.
"First of all you are not a "player" you've been schooled by plenty of girls! Second what have I told you about calling me "babe" you ass" I hit him lightly, I truly hated that word like why are u calling me babe is that the name on my birth certificate.... NO! then correct your mouth.
