Pag ako pumayat.....SIGE KA! [COMPLETED]

20.it's because...

 

“you said that nobody loves you except Violette and I was insulted. It’s because I LOVE YOU!”

I became speechless because of what he had said. He loves me? I looked up to him and I can see the sincerity in his eyes. Hinihintay ko ang joke part sa dulo pero wala.

“You love me? You’re lying! How can you love a girl like me? I am not perfect. I am fat and ugly plus I am not even your dream girl!” I explained.

“who says you’re not perfect. Well yeah, nobody’s perfect but for me you are. Kahit na mataba ka at hindi ka naman pangit.”

9.       If he loves you for whom you are.

Number ten is crashed out and only three signs left.

“Bakit ako? may ibang babae pa naman diyan na mas higit pa sa akin.” Sabi ko.

“Simple….Cause they are not you.” He uttered sincerely.

“stop it! I’ve been fooled once and I don’t want to be fooled again! Ayaw kong mahulog sa patibong mo! Don’t say those three words eight letters if you don’t mean it!” and I walked out.

My heart was filled with confusion and hatred. Yes, I am naïve. I got easily fooled. At hindi ko gustong ulitin pa yung kamalian ko. Naging tanga ako, OO! Dahil lang naman to sa pag-ibig. STUPID LOVE! STUPID HEART! STUPID MIND! STUPID ME!

I stopped when someone held my hand. At paglingon ko, he conquered my lips for how many times. I was shocked and couldn’t move. He drew me closer to him, slipping his arms unto my waist. I just found myself closing my eyes and returning the kisses he gives.

And it went deep and passionate. His tongue is playing, seeking entrance to my mouth and I grant it. I can taste mint. Para akong natutunaw. Napalupot ko ang kamay ko sa leeg niya. He’s biting and caressing my lips and it feels good.

Until it rained and we didn’t even break the kiss. Nalalasahan ko ang tubig ulan at ang tamis nito. Diba dapat tasteless ang tubig?

1.       If he kisses you under the rain.

OHMYGAD!

I slowly opened my eyes then closed it afterwards. We are kissing under the rain. A passionate kiss under the rain. That’s the first sign in my checklist. At napansin kong puro si Blu ang nakakagawa ng mga signs.

I detached myself from the kiss and both of us are grasping for air. “Go away from me!”

“WHAT? WHY?” napasigaw si Blu

“I don’t want to attach myself to anyone anymore. They’ll just leave me in the end.”

“Pero hindi ako! I won’t leave you Sab!” he pleaded.

“JUST LEAVE ME OKAY!! AYAW KO NG MASAKTAN PA AND REFRAINING MYSELF FROM ATTACHING TO SOMEONE IS A GOOD IDEA! I’D RATHER BE ALONE!” I shouted as the rain got heavier. Sumasabay siya sa emosyon ko. Lumapit siya sa akin and about to hug me but I pushed him away. “JUST GO AWAY!! WAG KA NG MAGPAKITA SA AKIN! ARE WE CLEAR!! YAN LANG ANG HINIHINGI KO SAYO!” pagkatapos kong bigkasin ang mga maaanghang na katagang yon ay kumaripas na ako ng takbo palayo sa kanya.

My eyesight was blury due to the tears as well as the rain. I wiped them off while running. Nung na adjust ko na ang eyesight ko, di ko alam na nasa gitna na ako ng daan at kaharap ko ay ilaw ng isang kotse na palapit na palapit sa akin.

*BBBEEEEPPPPPP*

Napatigil ako sa gitna at di ko alam ang gagawin ko. Hindi ako makatakbo at parang napako ako sa kinatatayuan ko. On the other side of my mind, iniisip ko rin na mas gusto ko pang magpakamatay kaysa mabuhay na nasasaktan.

*BEEEPPPPP*

Palapit ng palapit na ito sa akin at ipinikit ko na ang mga mata ko. “I’m ready” I stated and breathe deeply.

*BEEEEEPPPPP*

naramdaman ko na ang paglapit ng kotse sa akin base sa lakas ng tunog nito.

“SABRINAAAAAAAA!” sigaw ni Blu sabay hatak sa akin palayo sa daan at niyakap mula sa likod. “BALAK MO BANG MAGPAKAMATAY?HA?” he shouted but I can sense the sincerity in his tone.

I burst out crying while he’s hugging me then detached myself from his warm embrace but he refused.

“Please, Sab. Just this once. Please. I’ll grant your wish if you’ll grant mine. Let me hug you for the last time. Please. And I’ll promise to stay away from you.” He pleaded.

Hinayaan ko nalang siya sa pagyakap sa akin at mga ilang minuto lang ay tinanggal ko na ang mga kamay niya. “time is up Blu. You can leave me now.”

Napabuntong hininga siya. “okay, if that’s what you want. Wish granted. Thank you.” Nakita kong umiiyak siya kahit na umuulan at nasasaktan ako at nalulungkot. But this is for my own sake that’s why I have to do this. Tumalikod na siya at naglakad palayo sa akin.

Goodbye Blu Zeon.

A sad and frustrating birthday to me.

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