A Boy's Life Game

Chapter 6 Two Days Before

I was almost at the point of abortion. Should I? Should I just stay here and live miserably just so that someone else could feel at ease. I don't think it works that way but, you do what you have to I guess.

I walked toward the living room, it's been a while since I have actually sat down on the couch and turned on the TV. I reached for the remote and turned the TV on. I would usually just end up watching a show on my TV in my room, but I didn't want to feel alone. If I was alone I would be even more depressed because I'll think about the future and I'll think about consequences and the pros and cons. Thinking about the future is so stressful. I started to watch the show Teen Wolf. How could they all have so many problems and yet look like they have it so easy. I don't understand why things happen and why we were all put in the particular spots that we're in.

     I have decided to move on with my life and that some decisions depend on the choices you make and the choices you will make. I am going to leave and it kills me too see the people I will leave and then the people I will take with me. These days get slower and slower and by the time it happens I'll be free and miserable. I'm not that kind of guy to get scared, but this timing and this decision scares me shit loads.

     It was seniors week and all the teachers did was give us food and take us out to eat and things like that. These teachers told us that life is going our way and that be aware of the choices given and taking us. Like I didn't even know that.

     I walked to my locker which was empty and then walked to the history room where I was aiding. Mr.Youth looked over to me and smiled.

"Ready for life I see," he said as e patted my back and laughed a bit.

I looked at his eyes filled with happiness, "I guess..." I said as if I had my life planned . I was going to do it at this point. I had to tell Roen if he was going with me. I couldn't tell the other day and now it's now or never.

"You know," he said breaking my thoughts, "what ever comes your way, be ready to fight," he looked at me. "Never give in to anything wether it be physical or mental, you fight and play life smart."

All I could do was nod. I stood up and walked toward him looking at him face to face. I patted his shoulder and looked at him.
"Thanks," I sighed, "I'll remember that." The bell rang and I left the classroom.

I walked and saw Roen at his locker already cleaning it out. As I approached him he gave me a glare. I know Roen, he is my best friend. He usually doesn't give glares, to at me at least. But this particular glare meant to back the fuck away and leave him alone. But how could I? I ignored his look he gave me as I walked toward him.

"What?" He said as in an almost angry way.

"Roen," I scratched the back of my neck, "listen, you have always been my best friend and I don't want to loose you or what you mean to me." I said with sigh.

Roen looked in gloomy face, "Amory you are my family," he said with a small sigh, "but you, out of all people know, that moving on is part of life."

At this point I was getting frustrated. "Roen! Come on!" I scoffed. "I don't want to move on,". I paused "I want to change," I blurted out.

"Amory I'm sorry" he said as he looked down and then carefully lifting his head to look at me.
"You go ahead move on, and I-I guess I'll move on too."

I was shocked at his decision. He was my best friend, my brother, my ride or die. How could he do this? To me? Roen and I did everything together and us being seniors, is making it harder to live life.

I walked back to Roen. "Dude remember?" I questioned.

"Member' what?" He asked as he shut the empty locker.

"It was seventh grade and we sat down thinking about what would happen when we grew up and we said that no matter what happened we would be there for each other," I looked at him.

"That was seventh grade," Roen scoffed back at me.

"Roen," I paused for a moment, "you were the closest thing I had to family," I explained.
"You don't think that before seventh grade, before you, my life was just so peachy." I said raising my voice.

Roen almost smiled and looked at me. "Yeah, I do think your life was just so peachy you had everything," he paused, "your family is rich."

I turned and then looked at him. "Well then if my family really is rich." I said lowly "why was I always left alone, starved as a kid, and locked inside of a room for thirteen years, when my own parents couldn't even take care of me!" I said looking at him.

"Roen, once you came, I felt I had a brother, I felt happy for once in my life," I said trying to keep his attention. "You're my best friend," I said in an almost whisper.

"Amory," he paused, "you know that I'll always be here for you." He said with a small whisper.

"If you'll be here for me then go," I said looking at him, "go with me and live life with me as my brother" I said this time toward Roen.

Roen looked at me and thought for a minute. His eyes went from a soft green to a dark green almost gray.
"Amory, I'll go" he said almost with a whimper. "Just text me when and I'll be there." He said with a whisper.

"Okay," I said "alright, now get your things ready, take what you're going to take before we sneak." I said with a smirk.

Roen had left to his house and I, just couldn't believe he agreed. This is unlike of him but I guess something inside of me really wanted him to go. I walked to the locker room and grabbed my lacrosse gear and went outside to my truck. I opened the door and threw my things on the drivers seat. I drove to my house and looked at the window. I sighed and walked upstairs to another argument of my parents. My mother looked at me and and then to my father. She yelled at him and then continued. All I am is ghost. I walked into my room and turned on the TV. Sometimes I did feel that I should've just killed myself when I had the chance, but life doesn't live like that. So for now,I'll have to take my chances.

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Sorry for being so short!

Thanks for getting this far again! Hope you like this book.

Sorry for not updating I was caught up with so many crazy things.

But anyways stay tuned lol.