~truth or lie~ (SLOW UPDATES)

Chapter 1

12th of May
The day that my life became hell, the day that my beautiful mother died, the day that I regret being alive.

I wish I was the one who died,
I wish I could turn back time and do something to keep her alive. I want her here, I want to hug her, to tell her that I love her, I need to see her.. But I can't.

My whole life has been a lie, thinking another woman was my mum. When I realised the truth, it hit me. I look nothing like the woman my dad is with right now.

The full sixteen years I have been alive has been a lie calling someone else mum who doesn't even give a shit about me.

"Honey Noah we need to go your dad wants you back home," Sam snapped me out of my thoughts. Sam is my nanny, shes the only one who cares about me and helped me through everything, she's the one that acted like my mother but I never called her mum, I always called my dads wife mum. I always thought she was my mother when she was nothing to me...

"Why? He doesn't give a shit about me,he never did what does he want now? To remind me how it's my fault? How my mother died? ALL HE CARES ABOUT IS HIS MONEY AND HIS FUCKING WIFE WHY DOES HE NEED ME NOW HUH?" I yelled at Sam, I just couldn't control it.

"Honey please calm down it's ok let's just go home, it's gonna rain soon and I don't want you to get sick," she said softly

"Why did she leave me Sam?" I whispered. I just wanted to cry and yell but i have to be strong for her.

"Oh honey don't cry it's ok, you know that she didn't leave you she's up there watching you, you know you're making her sad right now. She doesn't want to see you sad she wants to see you happy, that's her one wish for you...come here," she told me

I went to her and hugged her, I couldnt hold it so I sobbed in her shoulder, she was whispering something in my ear telling me how it is going to be ok. But it's wasn't ok, I hate this day, I hate it so much.

"Let's go home and rest you can talk to your dad later, I will tell him ok hun?" She asked.

"Yeah let's go" I whispered feeling like my voice is gone.

When we arrived home, I went straight up to my room until a voice stopped me.

"Noah I know your home come downstairs right now!" My dad yelled, I wanted to ignore him and go to my room but something kept telling me to go downstairs and do whatever he wants. So I did.

I regret going to him , I wish i went up to my room and locked myself there.

I felt dizzy I wanted to yell at him liar, I wanted to run away from him.

"Say hi to your baby brother," those six words made me want to puke, my mind went blank, I just ran.

I ran, don't know where but I did. My breathing became faster and faster, all I could see was black dots everywhere in my vision. The last thing I heard was my name being called, then everything went silent..

HOPE YA LIKE IT DAMN I CAN WRITE JK (my bestvriend IhaveSTDs-ComeAtMe helped me bc like I forced her to help me AND doughnut follow her ok?ok)
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