Tonight's the night. The night im going to finally end it. Im going to make life better for everyone,by ending mine. I know ive said this all before but im serious this time,Im sick of the bullies and the haters I have no friends and my family hate me. What have I got to live for anyway the 5 people who have kept me alive to this very day dont care about me,they dont know who I am WHY would they care about a stupid 17 year old.
I pull my naked body out of the excruciating heat of the water shooting out of the shower head which was burning my body as I deserve everything I get. I reach over to sink and grab the sharp peice of metal which seemed to be my bestfriend and pierced my skin and sliced both on my arms,tears spilling out of my eyes as I wincing in pain and watch the blood drip on to the floor. The sense of relief entered my body as I watched the blood pile out of my cut and scared arms. The pain made me feel better but as soon as the tingling from my open cuts would dissapear the feelings just came back into my mind and I suddenly start to crave the pain.
I got up of the floor and walked to the sink as I stared at my ugly fat body in the mirror. I quickly turned the hot water tap on and waiting for it to stream before throwing my newly cut arms under burned myself once again. I couldnt bare looking at my ugly body I grabbed my bath towel from the radiator and slung it around my red body.
Slumping my weight onto my bed as I picked my phone up, no new messages what did I expect. I clicked onto the twitter app to see a tweet from Niall Horan
'I love all you crazy mofos! We had a really early start today! And everyone was soo tired , us and our team ! And you made our day tonight'
That boy is amazing I never knew that I could love one person this much then it hit me the thought that he doesnt know how I am, he doesnt care about me, he's loves the fandom but he doesnt love me.
I quickly typed a reply back
'I love you niall thank you for everything you've ever done for me, you've kept me alive for this long but I just cant do it anymore I love you dont forget that I love every single one of you boys!! thank you good bye' I pressed the blue tweet button knowing that niall wont see it so it doesnt matter aslong as Ive said Thank you it doesnt matter to me.
I slide open my draw and grabbed my pills,shaking as I unscrewed the lid and pouring the contents out onto my bed. I looked over to my phone as my noticafations were going crazy which I dont really understand that never happens to me. The longer it took for my twitter to load the more pills I swallowed with a glup of water to help it down.
Finally, It had loaded I scrolled down the connect page my eyes fell upon follows from people I didnt know,tweets telling me to stay strong for niall WAIT 'stay strong for niall' WHATTT
I frantically paced through the feed and stopped at
Niall Horan has now followed you
Niall Horan @NiallOfficial - @xniallhoransprincessx are you okay babe? check your dm's if you need t talk. Please dont end your life your much better than that. I love you Xxx
NIALL HORAN TWEETED ME
NIALL HORAN TOLD ME HE LOVED ME
NIALL HORAN KNOWS WHO I AM
NIALL HORAN DM'D ME
WAIT....NIALL HORAN DM'D ME
After finally getting my breath back I opened up my dm's and there is was
