Fated To Lose You

The Beginning and the End



Heavy traffic, hot evening, perfectly crowded bus stop in PhilCoA. My friend Shiela and I departed in that place as she need to take a cab going home and I need to take a bus going to Bulacan.

Finally a bus with a pack of workers from Manila were stuffed like sardines inside the bus. Even the isle were filled in.

I just came from Wensha Spa in Pasay, and I still feel the sleepiness after having a heavy massage. To cut it short, I took the "sardines" bus going to Tungkong Mangga. Since it is already full, I am standing beside the driver, in front of the entrance door.

We stopped in Tandang sora to let some of the passangers alight from the bus, then to be filled with another pack of people, who have been dreading to ride an aircon bus. Since there were already some spaces, I get to stand in most front of the bus. Then the new passengers already got in, and the bus started moving.

There is a man standing beside me, wearing his big trendy eyeglasses, black tees with a brand cotton on, black pants and a black shoes. I took a glimpse on his face, he looks like a foreigner. Pointed nose, well defined jaw line and distinctive form of lips.

Finally, a lot of people have alight in West Fairview, which has given us a chance to sit. He sitted in the third row, and I sitted on the fifth row uncomfortably. I was sitting beside a big disabled man, so I cannot ask him to move a bit, as he needed the space as well.

Bus moves a bit and the sitmate of the guy, that I have been eyeing since then, had already left her sit to alight in SM Fairview. So I moved beside him and put my headsets on, then I lean my back then close my eyes.

I really didn't notice that my right shoulder was leaning on his left shoulder. I felt a movement from his arms, he is giving me signal to lean more of my body towards him. I look on his face and found him awake and just straightly looking at the bus TV.

At first, I doubted my instinct, that he is giving me a signal. So I close my eyes again and and move away my shoulder from him. Because I feel so drowsy, I fell asleep for just a couple of minutes.

My sitmate on left moved out and alight in Lagro, so I got awake by her, then I move to left most side of the three sitter. He also moved and I got shock when he grabbed my hands. Then I stared at him, looking directly on his eyes, then there he is, also looking directly on my eyes.

I gasp. I skip a beat. Then finally got back to the reality. That we both held our hands. Without knowing each others name and if we are even allowed to do so (if we are single). We both smiled, and finally talk to each other.

I ask first. What's your name?

Warren. he said.

"Taga saan ka? (Where are you from?)"

"Malaria, Caloocan"

"Baba kana dun? (Will you alight there?)"

"No. Saan ka ba bababa? (No. Where are you going to alight?)"

"Sa SM Tungko pa. (In SM Tungko)"

"Dun narin ako bababa. (I'll also alight there)"

I smiled, and my heart beats fast, my mouth started drying up fast, and my mind starts drifting into nowhere.

I am struck again. A love song is playing in my head, and I couldn't stop my smile on becoming wider and wider.

Then I forgot that we are staring at each other's face. I blushed on embarassment. I think he is thinking that I really like him. Which is so obvoius.

Then we finally arrived in SM Tungko. He put his left arms on my shoulders, clinging me towards him.

We walk and walk and walk without any idea where to go.

"Gusto kita makausap, makakilala pa ng mabuti". Warren said.

"Sige ok lang naman, maaga pa naman" he said, then I answered back. "Single ka pa ba?"

"Oo two years na ako single, ikaw ba?"

I counted using my fingers then finally answer, "Eight months"

"Bakit, anong nangyari?"

"Pwede bang sagot ang past is past?"

"Ok, kung ayaw mo mag open, ok lang naman"

"If you are asking that question just to know if I did something wrong, kaya kami naghiwalay. Ang sagot ko is hindi. I loved him so much that's why I can no longer discuss what was in the past."

Then he finally opened up his love history. We are still walking in front of the park in Tungko.

"I am just single for a couple of weeks, but we have not been together for three months now"

Then I butted in. "Anong nangyari?"

"Lagi na kami nag aaway for the past months. He migrated to Sweden three months ago. Bago siya pumunta dun, punong puno kami ng mga pangarap. Ngayon, meron na siyang iba."

He continued. "Isang araw, nalaman ko nalang, meron na siyang iba, sabi nya nung una, one month vacation lang daw sya dun, tapos yun, naghanap na pala siya ng iba"

I got shocked, on how the way his love story has ended. I felt I am broken again, then the quote that I read, flashed in my mind.

"In order to love greatly, you have to love like you were never hurt before".

My heart cried again. While staring blankly to a tree in front of us. While he is staring at me.

"Oh mukhang napapaisip kana sakin, na parang sana hindi mo na ako nakilala"

"Hindi, sumasakit na kasi tyan ko. Kailangan ko na umuwi. Pasensya na. Itetext nalang kita"

"Okay, sige. Baka talagang ayaw mo na dahil sa kuwento ko. Sige, una kana, anong oras narin eh"

Then we departed, and we left our broken memories behind.

The end of the first part.