Secret Mission (Larry, Ziam, Nosh)

Making Up

A/N: Dont you hate when guys are confusing? I do -_-

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Regan's p.o.v

"Harry, get off me." i say warrily.

"Okay." He huffs and sits up.

I sigh greatfully and he plops up to his feet.

"Where are you going?" I ask.

"Gonna go talk to Lou." Harry sighs.

"Oh...okay." i sigh in relief.

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Harry's p.o.v

I walk up the stairs and see the door to Regan's room slightly open. I peek in and watch as Louis layes there in the darkness of twilight. He's cuddling into the pillow and tears are streaming heavily. He was always a good silent cryer. He has gone weeks crying in his sleep but i would only know by morning when they have dried on my skin or his face.

He has his eyes focused on the wall far away from me and doesnt seem to notice the dim light coming in or my pressence. He pulls the red comforter, now wet from his tears, over his body and lets out a strangled sob that scares the SHIT out of me.

I watch as he continues to bawl loudly. Too make sure no-one else comes in, i shut the door and lock it as quietly as i can. I kinda just stand there watching him. He starts saying stuff.

"I'm sorry." he mumbles into the blanket and pillow.

"Me too" i mouth even though he cant see me.

"I hate everything about myself!" His cry is muffled.

"How?" i murmur.

"I want to just...be done with my life. I want.. i want to....die." His voice cracks as he bawls harder into the bed.

I stand there shocked and cant believe what i had just heard. 

"why?" i say hardly audible and he doesnt hear me.

"But i can't." he says helplessly.

"why?" i lip into the darkness and he cant hear or see me.

"I have to stay strong. I have to stay strong for Harry..." He cries again "But he hates me so why do i feel like i have to!!" He pulls the blanket off his face and stares at the wall again, the room now pitch black.

"I dont know." i mouth not wanting him to notice me.

"I guess this is what it feels like to Love and not be loved in return right? Maybe being me....IS....a sin." he whispers "But that hell cant be any worse than THIS hell." He closes his eyes.

I cant take it anymore.

I slowly start to take my clothes off, that's the only way i can sleep. Once im in my boxers, i walk slowly and quietly to my crying Boo-Bear. As the bed dips, he realizes someone is getting in bed with him. He turns to face me and I lay my head on his chest and wrap my arms around his waist. I feel weird because he usually is the only to cuddle into me but i want to show him i love him.

I kiss around his neck and leave lovebites scattered all around. He holds me close but adjusts his body so his legs are tangled with my longer ones and his head on my bicep but snuggled into the crook of my neck. My head on top of his.

"I love you Boo, and dont you ever forget that okay?" I murmur into his hair.

I feel his face scrunch into a smile. He move his head to look up at me, he leans forward and our lips collide. His lips are soft against mine and I love the feeling. He pulls away before i can make the kiss more intense.

"Love you too Haz." He lays against me again and i hold him tight.

"My one and only." i whisper 

Louis kisses my shoulder and i rub his back up and down.

"So i guess we're okay again?" Louis questions after some time.

I was already half-asleep and had thought he was sleeping.

"Yeah Lou, we're okay." I chuckle "Now go to sleep, im tired."

"Okay Haz, It has been a long day huh?" He giggles along.

"Y-E-S." I yawn and kiss his forehead before closing my eyes again.

I wait until his steady, slow, breathes of sleep take over