Keep me close

Chapter 1

It's just the beginning

I've got to start trying... I need to stop crying... My baby needs me again... Sometimes I wonder, just what would I do without him... But now I'm getting ahead of myself. My name is Kristy, My full name is Kristine Elizabeth Valdez. Visualize a somewhat tall girl about five foot six and a half, weighs about one twenty pounds, shinny blonde hair, and bright blue eyes. Yup that's me, the stereotypical perfect 'trophy girlfriend.' my birthday is December 25, 1995... yes I'm a christmas baby! But if you believe it, When this all took place I was only sixteen. But I will never regret my decision. He has been such a blessing in my life.... It all started one night I was sitting on the couch. I was using my iPod for my Facebook, updating my status. It was "omg I hate being all alone!!!! Need something to do? Anyone wanna hang???" It's all silly now that I think about it... I wonder what I was thinking. Anyway back to the story. About ten minutes after checking that status, I got a friend request... I taped on the screen and the request was from "Zane Taylor." I knew who he was... Just couldn't put my finger on where I'd met him... Then it hit me Jr ROTC! I respond with an 'accept.' and message him for the first time. Life as I know it would never be the same again.

Chapter 2

It wasn't just a message

When I accepted that request, the notification said "Zane Taylor accepted your friend request! Post a message on their wall." Well I decided to message him instead. But all I could say to him was "HEY!!!!! just realized who you were whats up?????" I waited for what seems like forever for a response. after three minutes he sent me back "Lol nothing much. Just woke up." I don't know why, but I waited for a little bit and said "Lol same here I totally had to check out your pics cause I didn't know who you were! Now I know who you are So how have you been???" Then i thought to myself "Wow Kristy, nice move! He probably thinks your a major freak!!!" But I guess he didn't, because he sent another's message saying "Pretty good, you?" Well I felt like that was shot number two... Because I kinda had a crush on this kid... Yeah, yeah I've herd this before the whole oh-my-god-you're-only-sixteen excuse, and I think it's major bullshit. Well at least in that point of my life I did. To make a long story short, we had a little small talk. You know the whole "how's the family... How's life... Yada, yada, yada, bullshit" then it took an unexpected turn to a place I wish I could go back to when he got off subject and said "An icee sounds good" after talking about little kids locking your keys in the trunk all I could say was "Haha off subject but it does lol" I wait another minute... I wondered what he would say next... I was afraid it was going to be to the effect of 'I'm gonna go get one text you later.' But... he didn't he replayed to me asking the question that would change everything "I might just go get one, your welcome to come if you want." My heart was racing! I was thinking this was one big joke.. So I being hurt before could only say "Haha that would be fun" I waited for ten minutes... great job Valdez!!! you did it again! chase off another one why don't cha!!! but while i was beating myself up a message popped up "If you want, I'm just saying. :)" if I was too know what was going to take place from this day forward... I wouldn't trade that decision ever! I decided I sent him that final message "I'd love to go!(:"

Chapter 3

That Weird First Impression

I sat on the curb waiting for him... Hoped I didn't set myself up for failure... Oh don't get me wrong I've met the guy in person before.. But him correcting me on my uniform doesn't exactly count as being friends... Or even acquaintances for that matter... What the hell am I kidding? we were barley peers for Christ's sake!!! But fifteen minutes later a brand new cherry red Volkswagen Jetta pulls up to my house... And the guy inside that new car... Well he was here for me. I had a decision to make. Go with a practical stranger to who know where, or stay at home and go no where... I might have had some shitty things happen in my past... But I'm an adrenaline junkie! So I boldly stepped off the curb and get into the front seat of his car. he smile a super sexy half smile and tells me "buckle up little girl" I wasn't scared of his driving at all in fact my response was a sarcastic "oh really?" him and his half smile won over my heart... So we have small talk... Then it takes different turn. It got very as my friend Erin would always tell me "very sexual Krissy." he started telling me about his sex history... it wasn't like I was clean either.

Chapter 4

The Past Bites You Right in the Ass!

He wasn't the first guy I've gotten in their car with. Hell nor was he the first guy to touch me knee... It all started with Jabari... What a douche bag! How could I ever date him!!! He was barley five foot eight, over one hundred ninety pounds, and had absolutely no good looks... But like my dad always says "your a looser magnet Krissy! don't you have enough self respect to not sleep with every guy that moves?!?!" But I guess not, sex means nothing to me anymore. at least that's what I thought at the time. I should have fought harder that night! I wish I could have been stronger. because thinking about it now, I never had anything special to give him... I'm just used merchandise... But he still loves me... I don't understand it all, but I hope to one day. anyway back to the story. It was the first time I stepped into a new car with a strange man. he saved me... at one time he was my hero. then he turned dark. men were my number one trouble finder. and again apparently I was just some loser magnet. but the night before I met Jabari I met Sam... he was sweet at first too... they always were. then he asked me to walk him home... Alone... and leave my brother at the church... I decide to do the dumbest fucking decision any girl could possibly make! I leave my little brother Josten at the church to take Sam home... I wish I could change that night... then again I probably wouldn't be who I am today. We walked down the street. ill never forget Jostens face... like i abandoned him, i was useless... ill never forgive myself for it. we turned the corner to go to his house and he stopped me from moving forward. I asked "is there something wrong?" he put on a devilish grin and said "I just can't bring you home, I want a kiss" I had a strong reply of "I can't I have to get Josten! he'll be worried about me!" I turned and began to walk away when he grabbed my wrist, very hard an it started to hurt. I wanted to cry... but I never cried... not since my dad met that harlot! I just could mutter out "please let go your hurting me" he whispered in my ear " not without a kiss" I yanked my arm away from him and started to walk away. when he grabbed my waist from behind and pinned me to the ground. And mumbled (what I barley could catch was) "i said not without a kiss" I started to cry... I guess when I cry... people let go. Especially to me. he got off of me turned and walked away... leaving me on the ground the tears soaking me face.the next night I got into a car with a strange man again... except he didn't wanna hurt me like most people around me did... well not hurt me... but as some say it 'get what they deserve.' after that I met Jabari... At first he was everything I could have ever wanted. but then he turned ugly... He did things to me I can never forgive myself for. And I have questions that will remained unanswered, forever. like, why was I so naive? Why didn't my parents warn me better? I probably wouldn't have listened anyway. I'm so stubborn! how could I just let him do it? why didn't I fight back harder? god I'm so damn weak! Because of him I was supposed to be a teen mommy... sooner then fifteen... like fourteen.... but I guess god didn't want me to have that great miracle of my own little baby boy with someone who only wanted to hurt me... i guess thats why i miscarried all those babies..... supposed to be teen mommy... i was going to name him Grant... but i don't think i really wanna talk about that anymore... it just hurts too much to talk about it...in between Jabari and Elliot there was William... he was nice, kind, loving, and a lot of fun! but not the type for me... so I moved on. he was just a little crush... but it was that day on the soccer field where I met him... he was everything a girl could ever want! that perfect smile, caring green eyes, strong loving arms, and when I heard his heart beat I swear it was just for me. He was my world... And someday ill remove him from my heart. But for now he'll stay hidden away... deep in my dark place where my heart should be.

Chapter 5

Elliott James Ashton Adamson