I'm lying here in bed thinking about you, wishing you show up at the randomest times at night. Hoping everything was normal again, you lying next to me. Arms wrapped tightly around my waist as you sing to me. I miss that. You're my love, everything I could ever want. But right now I can't, I can't have any communication with you. Right now you're changing, you're different. I wish I could go back and fix what I have done, in reality I did nothing. In your eyes it was everything you couldn't wish for. He made the first move I continued my day normally, HE tried seducing me. I refused continuously. I did nothing and you slowly turned me down like I had a disease or something. I can't stop thinking about you, how you make me feel and how hurt you continuously make me. For that I have to move on, you ignoring me day by day is bothersome. Especially when you only talk to me when something is needed. I'm done with your games. But I miss you. Every thing about you was on point. I love that smile it was so cheesy. Your voice was my heartbeat, your lips I could continuously kiss them. It's just I have no choice now but to let go and move on because its obvious you have. Even if you were my first. I won't forget that, ill love you always but right now I can't. Right now I have to focus on me and fix myself back up because you tore down my walls and made me vulnerable.
-Sonja
