Do you believe that some certain songs can talk to you? They mean something, so deeply that you begin to get this feeling, that you can relate to the lyrics or the notes.
I believe that music can solve so many things, but lately everyone has lost the meaning of music. They don't understand that music isn't about no meaning. There's a meaning in everything.
"I kissed the scars on her skin, I still think you're beautiful and I don't ever wanna lose my best friend, I screamed out God you vulture, bring her back or take me with her" I sang out loud. See that stuff, so you see the emotions in the lyrics? You haven't even heard how it's been sung and you can tell its meaningful lyrics.
"Not a bad voice" Tyler said. I looked at him in his brown dull eyes, "shut up, don't lie to me" I said. I took one earphone out of my ear.
"Nah you're good, honest" Tyler smiled. "Why don't you act like a brother, you act like my best friend" I laughed, My eyes wondered to look out of our window.
You could see the heat through the air, the waves of heat are unbearable I feel like melting.
"Wanna go to the pool?" Tyler asked, I looked over to him and shook my hair no.
If he finds out all the scars on my wrists and the bruise's on my body, he'll know I'm getting bullied again.
Which is not the best idea, Tyler angry? He'll be put in jail, and I deserve it anyway. I am a full fledged faggot anyway.
"Earth to Dominick!" Tyler laughed, my attention fell back in the room. "Yeah what? Sorry aha" I apologised.
"I was asking you dummy, how's school going for you?" I pasted the best God damm fake smile ever.
"Good, I mean school is school so eh" I said making sure it wasn't too fake.
"Yeah, has my little bro got any hot chicks around his mind?" Tyler asked.
HAHAHAHAH IF HE KNEW HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.... *coughs* yeah I'm gay, bitch didn't expect that.
"Nah I haven't really worried about girls, school work is more important than girls" I lied.
I swear my brother should be an anchor for a boat, cause' he's draw dropped so far it hit the ground.
"What has the school system done to the teenage boys?" He asked. I laughed as he rant about school being fucked up. I ignored him,
The funny thing is I haven't told the school or may of factly anyone that I'm gay, people just started bullying me.
*FLASHBACK*
"Please stop" I heard victor screamed out. I rushed around the corner to see josh, Danny and kellin kicking pour victor.
"HEY! LEAVE VICTOR ALONE YOU LOW LIFE SCUMS, WHO THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU ARE KELLIN? DANNY? JOSH, WHY DID YOU GUYS TURN INTO ASSHOLES ALL OF A SUDDEN?!?" I screamed pushing them away from victor.
"Because VICTOR IS A FUCKING LITTLE FAIRY FAGGOT" Danny spat in my face.
I stood there, motionless, what? He's a faggot? He's gay? I looked at victor, blood and tears were on his face. I looked back to the boys.
I clenched my fists and punched Danny right in the nose and kicked him in the dick.
Kellin came swinging at me, I ducked and tripped him over.
Along came josh coming to tackle me. I got my fist ready and went straight to his stomach.
He fell to the ground holding his stomach, groaning.
I let my hand out to help vic up, he grabbed my hand and I pulled him out of school.
"Sorry" was all he could say, I stopped walking and turned around, " don't apologise, it's okay" I said hugging him. It's okay......
We walked to my house and I made him sit on the bathroom counter sink, I got some detol shit and cleaned him up.
"What's that? That isn't from them?" I questions, seeing scars on his wrists.
He whimpered when I ran the detol over it, obviously stinging his wounds.
"They're cuts, I did them myself" he said, starting to cry.
I hugged him tight, I rubbed his back as he cried over my shoulder, "it's okay" I whispered.
I stopped hugging him and pushed him gently back which his shoulders.
"DON'T do that again, I don't want you to be hurt" I commanded, he nodded his head wiping the tears still coming out.
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Next day
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"Dom and Vic, sitting in a tree k-I-s-s-I-n-g....." Oh god they think I'm gay? Great..
*END OF FLASHBACK*
"Hey bro you okay? Why are you crying" Tyler asked. I didn't realise I was crying....
"Victor...." I whispered, he shot up real quick, he knew what I was talking about.
"Hey don't think of that it's okay, I'll be right back" my brother stood up and walked out of my room.
"Hey mum...........yeah, I think he might need more Medicine.................. Yeah he started crying out of the blue again and said victors name............... No, I don't think he needs to go hospital mum, he's okay but it might get worse again......" I heard Tyler on the phone.
Oh trust me it is worse, neither mum or Tyler know that I started cutting myself and starving myself.
"I-It was m-my fal-fault" I whispered so quiet I could hear my self shaking.
I looked out side the window again, I stepped on the ledge looking 4 stories stories down we lived in an apartment so we were high up.
"ITS MY FAULT" I screamed, I foot out the window, gravity took place.
-Endzz-
