Things have been bad. I don't have any of my aforementioned problems solved, but everything's starting to glow. It's all getting better. Sure, it's not actually getting better, but I have a new 'problem'. There is a girl at my school. She's the most beautiful, intelligent, perfect, girl I've ever met. She's the Cas to my Dean, or as the picture above relates to, the sapphire to my Ruby. I love her. I'm not able to tell her yet, I mean, I'm way to young for it to last. But if my crush lasts over the summer, or it gets to intense for me to handle, I might gather up what little courage I have and tell her. Over email. Never in person. I feel as if summer would be best, though. If I said at the beginning, and she said yes, I would be able to take her to a custard place or just anywhere. If she said no, I wouldn't have to face her at school. But in all honesty, it feels as if I can fly when I'm around her. I want to hug her and kiss her cheeks and tell her she's gorgeous, because I can't lie to her. I want to braid her long hair and hold her like I can never let go, because I try my best not to. These things keep me going. Sure I'd never commit suicide, but I would get really close if she weren't there. Even staying friends would keep me happy.
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Diary of confusion
SaggisticaMe ranting about the shit that goes on in my life, and if you want to, you can rant as well.
