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Chapter 44 - Terrence Loves You

Chapter Forty Four | Terrence Loves You
Jin Revamonte's Point of View

Wait, is Blue crying?

I can hear him on the other side of the room. Kasi parang plywood lang naman ang separation na wall dito. Hindi siya sementado.

Kaya dali-dali akong lumabas ng kwarto namin ni Damn at kumatok sa pintuan ni Blue. He opened it a minute later and I noticed he was holding a picture of someone.

"Oy, okay ka lang?" Tumango siya sa akin, but there were tears visible in his eyes. "No. You aren't." Ani ko kay Blue. "Do you want to talk about it Blue?" Mahinahon kong sinabi sa kaniya, he did not hesitate to open his door at pinapasok ako.

Umupo ako sa tabi nito sa kaniyang higaan. I'm older than Blue kaya I somehow wanted to make him feel at ease dahil parang kapatid na siya sa akin. Although they were quite naughty sa lugar nila. Jusko. But even so, he's a part of the family.

Hinawakan ko si Blue sa kaniyang kamay. "Tell me."

Blue He started tearing up. Jusko, sumasakit ang dibdib ko sa pag-iyak niya. I don't really like seeing people cry. And I thought Blue was this strong of a guy pero hindi din pala. May dinadamdam pala itong sakit sa loob ng kaniyang puso.

He started talking about how he met Terrence. "Terrence was like an angel." Panimula niya sa akin, pero 'di ko alam in-imagine ko si Terrence na may pakpak. Ang cheesy ni Blue mag-story telling eh!

"Sa totoo lang kasi, 'di ko naman siya gusto. Pinipilit niya kang talaga ang sarili niya sa akin. But as time went by, nahulog na lang ako sa kaniya basta't-basta. Ang torpe ko. Putangina." Ani Blue sa akin at saka tiningnan ang litrato ni Terrence.

The boy had an auburn hair. Fluffy cheeks, tapos ang bata pa tingnan. "How did he die?" Tanong ko sa kaniya.

"Internal Haemorrhage, he kept banging his head on the wall. He's been doing self-harm all along." Napapa-iling lang si Blue at tinatakpan ang noo nito habang umiiyak. "If I only knew. Kung alam ko lang sana, s-sana 'di ko siya pinaasa." He burst out crying again. 'Di ko na nakayanan kaya niyakap ko siya.

"Blue... I-it's okay. At least you gained an angel." I assured him.

Blue just kept on crying. "If only I could turn back time. If only I can tell him how I feel. I lost the guy who had never even once owned me."

Hinimas-himas ko lang ang likod nito para tumahan. Hindi na ako nakapagsalita. Sometimes its better to be silent.

I know how hard it is to lose someone. Especially someone you love. I lost my parents at a young age. I know how hard it is.

Kaya I can feel Blue's pain. He's as fragile as me.

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Also, sorry if this chapter is short. I had to make it short kasi.

Also here's a side note about this chapter, as I was writing this chapter humahul-gol na naman ako. Shit, keeps coming back to me kasi. My bad.

Sorry, I'm going to be emotional sa chapter na'to. If you haven't read BLUE (Blue's story yet) I suggest you read it, it's just a short story so matatapos niyo din kaagad. I wrote it in 2016.

Blue was a reference of someone close to me back then.

In the story Terrence died in March 16, it's also a reference to me letting go of that love of mine. Almost all the happenings in the story happened to me. Well except for the bed scenes and dying scenes. In March 16 2015, I concluded to myself na I should let go of that guy. And I literally broke down in front of a friend of mine in public — sa daan it was excruciating giving everything to someone and realising he'll never give the love back. In the end ending hopeless.

This has to be told through Blue's words too, kaya I decided to add this chapter. Dahil readers kept asking me kung ano na ang mangyayari kay Blue. Blue will not be having a happy story. He was named Blue after all. (This was because after I finally gave up my own love to that guy, I started hating him.) but don't worry, Blue will have a huge appearance sa new story ko na ROUGE and in my old story, MEETING MISTER.

So that's it. If you want to know more about Blue's story. Read BLUE. 💙