Switching though stations on Pandora i found one i hadn't heard in a long time. it was the gorillaz, probably one of my favorite artist of all time. Well when i was younger i recently lost most my interest in everything i used to do. for me it was rap and emo shit.
"Jake you where supposed to take your brother to aunt B" yelled my mom from the room the kitchen
"what dose he ever do for me" i replied with a lot of attitude and sarcasm
" listen Jake if expect to get something out of just simple favors or tasks, your gonna have a shit life and your gonna be some grumpy old man with no wife.
My mom hadn't yet figured out i wasn't totally in to women" well in a sexual way. i still valued women. in fact all my friends where girls i was very popular when it came to hanging out with guys sure i had guy friends that id like fist bump. it really wasn't the fact that i didn't want to take him, it was more because my car is my safe place, its the only time i actually fill sane. so when ever people ask me to dive them i usually make up excuse. there are times when i cant handle life and i leave school and just drive with my music full blast
As i got in the car with my brother i immediately turned on my music and ignored him. i hated myself for always pretending like he was a burden instead of an actual brother. its just i could not bring myself to really treat anyone with the respect they deserved, but at the same time i always was worried what people thought of me. in fact i care so much what people think when ever someone says something bad about me, i take it to heart and spend years trying to perfect myself
"why are u so pissed all the time " my brother said with low voice like he didn't want me to hear him. i debated for a couple seconds if i should say anything, i finally chose to say something
" I'm so fucking done with everyone saying i'm mad, i'm not mad i'm just" i took a moment and thought about that to say. before i could say anything my brother cut me off just to say
"what, there isn't any other reason is there your just an angry teen, hope to god i don't turn out like you. i took it so much to heart my brother was ashamed of me i almost started cry but right before i did i finally reached my aunts house. he got out of the car without saying a word. i stood still just thinking'thinking about the monster i was, how my family thought of me. thought about if i really was a jerk. i came to realize i was just tired. tired all the time, tied of the drama tired of just life
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Teen Fictionthis book is about a teen struggling with depression and anxiety. trys to better his life by accepting the fact hes gay and getting a boyfriend. but it turns out his boyfriend might have bigger problems then him P.S. i'm terrible at writing just try...
